Sierra sat in her African American History class as Professor Chuku (bless you! by the way) handed back the seven page exam the class had taken two days before.

"Many of you did very well,"

He said with his heavy African Accent

He smiled at Wade, as it was obvious he was one of them that achieved a nice grade. Sierra was positive she did the same. She studied her ass off for four hours and knew that exam like the back of her hand.

"Many of you failed,"

He said

He looked over by her for a moment and then back to the other students. Sierra knew he wasn’t talking about her. Hah! She did way better than stupid, stuck up Wade! She could challenge that Wannabe to a pop quiz any day. Her exam was passed to her and her grin turned sour when she saw the big, fat ‘F’. Her eyes widen, as she couldn’t believe she got that grade. She looked over at Jessica who was sitting in front of Wade as she turned to him to discuss their grade. Adrea looked over at sierra and she mouthed ‘How did you do?’. Sierra cracked a smile and mouthed her lie ‘Good’. Adrea mouthed ‘I got a ‘B’…..Hurrah’. Sierra gave her the thumps up and stared back down at her paper. Kai poked her shoulder.

"Whatcha get?"

He asked

Kai sat behind Sierra as she quickly put the exam between her textbook from him seeing it. She turned, "Good, how about you?"

"I got a ‘C’, but it will do,"

"Yeah, that’s a good grade,"

She said

She held in her pride and confusion of her failure and turned back around. She peaked at her test and she had only gotten Seven out of thirty questions wrong. Surely that didn’t deserve an ‘F’. It had to be a mistake. She turned to Kai again.

"How many you get wrong?"

She asked

"Four,"

"MS. GONZALEZ, IS THERE SOMETHING YOU WOULD LIKE TO DISCUSS WITH THE WHOLE CLASS!"

Snapped Chuku

Sierra turned around quickly as students snickered and looked. She blushed and mumbled, "No,"

"I’m sorry I didn’t hear you,"

"I said no,"

She said

"It is impolite to discuss your scores while I am trying to conduct class,"

Sierra sunk in her chair in anger over her grade and the professor’s constant badgering. She was sure he was picking on her at least three times in one week just because he disliked her. He targeted in class as an example. He called her his Mulatto child everytime he spoke of slaves sleeping with the owner’s wife, and they made a baby that looked like her. How many people like HER were sold, killed, or left to die because of the burden and the embarrassment. She was getting tired of it but every other class she wanted to take so she could drop this was filled.

She frowned as she picked at he bent cover to her notebook as she completely ignored him.

"As I was saying, many of you are lucky that this isn’t the Exam that is sixty percent of your grade………..You will have failed this class and you would have to take it over next semester. Many of you failed because you didn’t use the proper wording, or you studied the wrong thing,"

He said

Class ended and Sierra had to meet Josh back at the dorm but she wanted to give this Chuku character a piece of her mind. It was the first exam she had failed at in the class. She had been passing the class by the skin of her teeth. He started to pack up his things in his briefcase so he could go teach another class in another building. At first he ignored Sierra as she stood there with her arms folded in front and with a cross look.

"May I help you Ms. Gonzalez or are you still calling yourself, Half and Half?"

"How can I have gotten a ‘F’ on this?"

She asked

She shoved the paper in front of him. He shoved it away, and calmly stated, "You didn’t use the proper context,"

"So? It was right though,"

"Once again, Ms. Gonzalez you do it my way or you choice to fail……..You did it your way and you choice to fail, Now, if you will excuse me I have another class to attend to,"

"I have one more thing to say,"

"What Ms. Gonzalez,’
He sighed

"I got seven wrong out of a possible thirty……..That’s like a ‘B’ and Kai got four wrong and you gave him a ‘C’,"

"I do not see him standing here complaining. Second of all, Ms. Gonzalez I do not grade on curves like when you were in High school, this is my grading system. If you do no like it, you can drop my class,"

"Ha! I cant! I tried, this class carries five credits……..I need fifteen to be a full time student and hold on to my scholarship………the other classes that have five credits are all gone. I don’t have a choice,"

"Then maybe you should do things by the book………and use the proper context. Ms. Gonzalez you have passed the other test……by the skin of your teeth by the way……..There is still that other test that is worth sixty percent of your grade in a couple weeks. If you not pass that test, will looking for another class to take with other students like you,"

"You don’t like me, You pick on me in class for no apparent reason, just because I’m mix,"

"I do not use chosen people in my classes…if you see it that way, I do apologize. Now, if you will excuse me Ms. Gonzalez I have to go,"

She stepped to the side and he walked away. She crumbled up her exam and tossed it in the trash. She then stormed out.

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Lance lay on his bed tossing the tennis ball he always carried with him to release stress with. He threw it up against the wall back and forth and it was really starting to piss me off. I stormed into his room with an anger look on my face. He stopped tossing and looked at me all surprised.

"Chris, what are you doing up? I thought you took your Prozac and went to bed,"

He asked

"Lancsten let me see your ball huh?"
I asked

Lance sat up and smiled as he tossed me the ball. I took the ball and stormed in the bathroom and tossed it in the trash. I walked back out.

"Now, you have nothing to play with……good night,"

I snapped

"Gees, be a little on edge,"

"Lance, I am trying to sleep ok? I’m a little sad tonight and I want to take a whole bottle of Flintstone vitamins in hope I die ok?"

I snapped

"Why are you depressed tonight? I mean we did so well today. We have all the fans,"

Smiled Lance

"Look, I’m depressed ok? It’s part of my recovery,"

I pointed at him trying to calm down, as I was ready to tear his head off.

"I’m tired………..I’m going to go to bed. I was listening to my No Doubt CD and you interrupted my wetdream of Gwen Stefani. It was at the part when she was singing to me and taking her clothes off,"

I snapped

"Oh, I once had a dream of Dolly Parton and she was ready to take her top off and boom I woke up. Don’t you hate that?"
He giggled

"I hate you,"

I groaned

Lance’s eyes widen, "Wow, you really are depressed, Sorry,’

I gave him one final look and was ready to leave when he whined at me.

"Chris?"

He whined

"What!"

I snapped

"I think I’m depressed now,"

"No, you cant,"

"Why?"

He asked

"Because I’m depressed we can’t be depressed together ok?"

"Well why?"’

"Gees, I feel like I am having a conversation with Sami. She’s six-year-old, Lance! You’re eighteen!"

"Actually I’m seventeen,"

He cheesed

He smiled so big his pearly whites nearly blinded me.

"I’m going to sleep Lance,"

I said

"Chris,"

He whined

"What! What!"

"I don’t think Mo likes me, even if we are getting popular,"

He pouted

"Oh, Lance get a grip,"

"Come sit with me so I can discuss my problems,"
he whined

I sighed and stomped my feet in protest. I was so sick of playing therapist with him. I mean I was the one depressed here and he’s the one getting therapy by me! Of all people, he seeked advice by me, the crazy person. I gave in and sat next to him.

"Ok, what? And don’t go putting your head on my shoulder ok?"

I asked

"Fine. Ok, so I might have freaked out Mo with my cow stories, but I’m not sure,"

"Yeah, that could be it Lance. It is kind of odd,"

I nodded

"But, Bessie was a good cow,"

"Lance, no one cares,"
I sighed

Lance pouted and crossed his arms.

"Now, don’t get all defensive about the Holstein ok?"

I said

"She won first place at the county fair. You guys just don’t appreciate a good story when you hear it,"

"Now, Lance I do appreciate your good……..odd……..crazy….and silly stories. Believe me! I mean you make me forget all about my problems, man,"
I smiled

"I’m not trying to be funny when I tell them, Chris,"

"Ok, sorry little dude, but the cow stories aren’t for the ladies ok?"

"They aren’t?"

"No, Lance. Look at Mo, she’s hot, hip hop, on the R & B tip kind of girl she doesn’t want to hear what kind of grazing the cows do,"

"What about the Cow tipping stories?"
He smiled

"No, bad idea,"

Lance sighed and lay on his bed disappointed.

"Look, you’re a smart cowboy you will come up with way better conversations,"

"Dude, I cant. It’s either discuss the best years of my life, which was on the farm or ……..or……..Never mind,"

He sighed

"What?"

"Or I tell her about Tara and how she hurt me,"

"Well, don’t tell her about the ex,"

"It seems so long ago and the more I live without her……..I miss her,"

"You’ll get over here,"

"What if I don’t?"

"You will, every day will get easier,"

"The minute it got easier, I saw her,"

"Well, now you are far away from her, you got plenty of time to get over her again. Dude, I’m tired and we have to be up early tomorrow. Talk to you later,’

"Chris, it’s only five,"

"Prozac is kicking in,"
I yawned

"Oh,"

"See yah,"

I waved

I opened the room door and pointed back at him, "No, more cow stories ok?"

He nodded and waved. I left and he sighed thinking about Tara……….

Heaven please send to all mankind,

Understanding and peace of mind.

But, if it's not asking too much

Please send me someone to love……..

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Show all the world how to get along

, Peace will enter when hate is gone.

But, if it's not asking too much,

Please send me someone to love………….

Tara sat outside Jasmine’s schoolyard again and watched from a distant as she played with her friends. This time she was a cross the street sitting on a bench smoking a cigarette. She sighed as she saw Jasmine smiling and playing jump rope with her friends. She looked over at an old lady with a cane as she sat next to her on the bench. The lady had two bags of groceries with her and was struggling with them. Tara helped her a little as the Lady smiled.

"Thank you dear child,"
said the lady

"No problem,"

"Did the bus come yet?"

Tara looked down the street as they were at the bus stop, even if she wasn’t waiting for a bus just watching Jasmine.

"No, it hasn’t,"

She said

"Ok,"

Said the lady

I lay awake night and ponder world troubles.

My answer is always the same.

That unless men put an end to all of this,

Hate will put the world in a flame, (oh) what a shame

Tara looked at her cigarette in between her fingers and let the smoke surround her face. She looked up at the playground and continued to stare at Jasmine playing. She was so happy and Tara was so sad she couldn’t be a part of it. She was forced to fade into the background or confront Jasmine and have the cops hail her off to jail. Her aunt and uncle had placed a restraining order on Tara so she had to stay hundred feet away from Jasmine. She didn’t stay a hundred feet away. It was starting to be an everyday thing visiting the schoolyard at lunchtime. She got a four-hour break in between the filming of her adult movies and she took her alone time to watch her daughter be happy, even if it was from a distant. Tara, who wanted to be near her but, couldn’t settle for a distant view only. As long as Jasmine was ok, Tara was happy.

Just because I'm in misery.

I'm not begging for no sympathy

.But if it's not asking too much,

Just send me someone to love……

She wanted to hug her and never let her go. Everytime she thought about when she had all the time to hug her, she cherished these moments back in time. Jasmine’s smiling face before she knew the truth gave Tara completely pleasure to her ever pain of not being there for her.

Heaven please send to all mankind,

Understanding and peace of mind.

But if it's not asking too much,

Please send me someone to love…….

Tara leaned her head back and closed her eyes as she was exhaled from all the long hours of work. She meditated as suddenly Jasmine saw her across the street. Jasmine slowly walked over to the steal fence that surrounded the playground and stared out of it. She pressed her face us against it with her eyes looking out of the holes in the fence.

But if it's not asking too much,

Please send me someone to love…….

Jasmine grew courageous of Tara’s presence and the truth behind her identity. Jasmine knew she was her mom and had so much questions now she wanted to ask. She knew she was scolded by her guardians about not talking to Tara and was told lies that she was trouble, but Jasmine felt a connection to Tara. She slowly followed the fence to the entrance to the street. She kept her eyes focused on Tara. Tara was still meditating and not realized that she was being stalked. Jasmine walked on to the sidewalk and stood there unsure what she should do next. She was told never to cross the street with out a grown up, but she was willing to cross that line just to see Tara. She walked over to the stoplight and crosswalk and waited patiently for it to change to green.

No one from the playground including teachers on recess duty noticed the little girl leave. The city bus came down the street and Tara looked over as she heard it’s rumbling motor. She still didn’t notice Jasmine walking cross the street as the light turned green. Jasmine hesitated as she got closer and closer to Tara. When she got to the crib she jumped on top of it, like a playful six-year-old she was. That’s when Tara saw her. Tara slowly rose to her feet speechless as Jasmine stood there with a plain look. Jasmine was more curious then anything. Jasmine stood there with her hands in her flair jeans. Tara cracked a smile as and kneed down to her. Jasmine stepped back a little, as she was still hesitant.

"Jasmine,"

Smiled Tara

"Why are you here?"

A tear fell from Tara’s eye as she was trying to explain her reason for being there. Tara held out her hand to her but Jasmine shied away.

‘You’re so beautiful,"

Tara said in delight

Jasmine didn’t say a word. Just then a teacher saw the little girl and ran across the street. The city bus pulled up and Tara’s once grin turned to sorrow. The teacher didn’t know why Jasmine was over there and smiled at Tara.

"Sorry, we didn’t mean to bother you,"

Said the teacher

‘It’s ok,"

Said Tara

Jasmine continued to stare at Tara curious as the teacher took her by he hand nagging, "Why did you leave the playground? You know you’re not suppose to,"

Tara stepped back slowly as the old lady announced, "the bus driver wants to know if you need to a ride?"

Tara turned and nodded, "Yeah,"

She slowly got on the bus and sat looking out the window as Jasmine stood on the other side of the steal fence again looking at Tara on the bus. Jasmine touched the fence as though she was touching Tara’s hand. Tara pressed her hand up against the window and smiled.

I lay awake night and ponder world troubles.

My answer is always the same.

But if it's not asking too much,

Please send me someone to love…….

Song by Sade ‘Please Send me Someone to Love’

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Justin and Adrea lay on the bed kissing each other, as he was so pleased that she wasn’t on her menstrual cycle any longer. He stuck his hand down her pants and rubbed her insides. She placed her hand on his crotch and massaged his private area. He then lifted up her shirt and kissed her stomach. Just then her roommate walked in and gasped when she saw them making out, "Ooh, I am so sorry,"

She walked back out of the room until they straightened up. Justin sighed, "You should have gotten a room of your own,"

"freshmen’s cant. Only sophomore year I can have my own room and I won’t be here. You can come in Courtney,"

Her room mate walked in and still apologized, "Sorry, I didn’t know,"

"Neither did we,"

Grumbled Justin

Adrea shushed him as he always had a smart comment for everyone, especially if they were interrupting him getting his freak on. She walked over her desk and sat down. Justin who had his jeans unzipped…..Well, zipped up as Courtney blushed.

"I forgot I had the garage door still open,"

He pointed to his zipper

‘Stutter’ by Joey

I can tell you're lying, because when you're replying,

Stutter, stutters, stutter, and stutters. I can tell you're lying,

because when you're replying,Stutter, stutters, stutter,

stutters.

Justin got up from the bed and gave Adrea an annoyed look. Adrea shrugged.

"Time alone,"

He grumbled

He walked out of the room to go to the little boys’ room to get rid of his boney. Adrea sat on her bed and started to talk to Courtney when Kai knocked on their open door. Adrea was surprised to him.

"Malakai?"

She asked

"Yeap, I’m him…..Is he around?"

"Who?"

"Who?"

Mocked Kai

"Justin? He’s in the bathroom,"

Said Adrea

Kai walked in as Adrea sat with hesitation on her face in hopes Justin wouldn’t walk in and wonder why Kai was there. Justin who liked to jump to conclusions and knew Kai didn’t like him for any apparent reason, to his knowledge, she knew just snap if he saw Kai there.

Talk to me, tell me, where you were (late last night),

You told me, with her friends, hanging out (late last night),

You lying, cuz you stuttering, now where were you (late last night)

Stop lying to me, cuz you're ticking me off, see you're ticking me off, oh girl.

"So, um what’s up?"

asked Adrea

"Well, I ain’t here to be shady, aiight?"

He assured

"I wasn’t thinking that,"
she giggled nervously

He handed her a necklace. Courtney who knew Adrea had messed with Kai watched.

"I thought you would miss that,"
said Kai

"Oh, I knew I lost it, but I didn’t know where,"

Said Adrea

"I found it in the frame of my bed,"

Courtney’s eyes widen, as she was sure she had arrived just in time for some boyfriend drama. All we needed was for Justin to walk back in.

"So, um,"

Stuttered Adrea

"Well, I know it was your brother’s and I know you would want it,"

"Yeah,"

Said adrea

I called you, on your cell phone, no answer (tell me why).

So I paged you, on your two-way, still no response (tell me why)

.I took care of you, I loved you, and you played me (tell me why)

Stop lying to me about where you been, Cuz you're ticking me off,

ticking me off.

Kai seem like he was wasting time on persist just so Justin would see him. Adrea knew she had to get Kai out there, before Ju did return.

"So, what are you up to tonight?"

Asked Adrea

"Wade and I are going to the Def Poetry Jam,"

Said Kai

"Oh, I heard of that place and it’s on HBO channel too,"

Said Courtney

"So, I suppose you should be going, huh?"

Asked Adrea

"Are you trying to kick me out?"
He asked with a smirk

Adrea’s face lit up, as she didn’t want to look like she was.

"No, I am just saying. I heard the line up to that place is unbelievable. I wouldn’t want you guys to miss that show,"

Said Adrea

"Oh, it ain’t until 8pm,"

Nodded Kai

Kai paced the room looking at their posters that had put up. He had seen these before but now he was making it obvious he was there to test Adrea’s nerves.

It's funny to me, when you lie to me,

You start stuttering, tripping, I caught you, baby.It's funny to me,

when you lie to me,

You start stuttering, tripping, I caught you, baby.

Adrea wanted to shove him out of there quickly but knew she couldn’t. Justin suddenly walked in and Courtney snickered, "Oh here we go,"

Adrea gave her a look. Justin and Kai looked at each other for a few moments. Kai turned to Adrea.

"So, I better get going,"

Said Kai

"Yeah,"
blushed Adrea

Justin noticed how red she was and nervous. He gave Kai a look as he slowly left.

"What was he doing here?"

Asked Justin

Adrea looked over at Courtney for answer.

"He was here to see me,"

Lied Courtney

Justin was unsure as usual as his jealousy was present. Courtney snatched the necklace out of Adrea’s hand.

"He dropped off my necklace. I'm so forgetful, I left it over at his place,"

Said Courtney

"Oh,"

Nodded Justin

I smell cologne; damn it's strong,

How'd you get it on (I'm not done).He messed up your hair, makeup's everywhere.

Oh yeah, (I'm not done).Girl you're crying cuz you're lying to my face (I'm not done).

Stop lying, about sentiment, Cuz you're ticking me off.

I can tell you're lying, because when you're replying

Stutter, stutters, stutter, stutters

Adrea got up quickly and took Justin by his hand out the door, "I’m hungry Ju Let’s go get something to eat,"

"Ok,"

He said all suspicious

She gave him a nervous smile.

"You sure you ok?"

Asked Justin

"Yeah,I’m hungrier than a hostage that’s all,"

Said Adrea

"Oh,"

He said still suspicious

I can tell you're lying, because when you're replying,

Stutter, stutters, stutter, stutters.I can tell you're lying,

because when you're replying,

Stutter, stutters, stutter, stutters.

===========================

2of10 (Jessica)

‘Cause you ain't never had a friend like me’ by 2 Pac

Never
You ain't never had a friend like me, balee dat
Cause you ain't never had a friend like me
See, at night I watch the sky
I take another breath
I smoke my Newport to the butt, like it's the last muthafucka left

Wade and I sat in his bedroom as we listened to the soundtrack CD of ‘Gridlocked’ with the late 2 Pac rapping on it. I smoked my cigarette as I had invited my best friend to my get together with Sierra and Josh; of course he didn’t know he was actually meeting up with them. I made up a lie, wink!

"So where are we eating?"

He asked

He changed into a different shirt, sigh of course it had to be the T-shirt with his Greek letters on it…. Purple and yellow letters.

"At the student Union Café,"

I said

"That dump?"

"Well, sorry Liz Taylor we cant afford the La Bristol down the street,"

"I’m just saying, freshmen hang out of there, Yo,"

He said

"Wade, just get ready,"

"This song is tight, kid,"

Said Wade moving his head to the song

Just me and you evading enemies
Let you get my last shot of Henessey
Ain't never had a friend like me
Remember memories so vividly
Was once a little dusk kicker, now becomes a G
Who can I call when they all fail

"Yeah, real tight,"
I said bitting my nail

He put on a baseball hat I quickly snatched it off. He got insulted and snatched it back.

"What’s your fucking problem?"

He snapped

"You can’t look like a bum,"

"I’m not a bum!"

He snapped

I didn’t want him looking like a homeless person especially when I was trying to make a good impression on Sierra with him. I mean all I needed was for Wade to show his true homeless side.

"Spray some cologne on ok?"

I asked

"Why? I mean we are just going to eat,"

"Spray yourself!"
I grumbled

He gave me a look.

"I’m going to eat with you and Heidi and then meet up with the guys later,"

"You and those fucking Q-Dawgs! That’s why you can get a girlfriend……you and Kai see too much of each other. People are starting to talk,"
I lied

"Man, fuck you! No one thinks we’re gay,"

He laughed

I crossed my arms and gave him alook.

"They don’t,"
he said all concerned

"You sure?"
I teased

"Why we gotta meet up with Heidi?"

"Oh, don’t start ok? I mean I thought you made up and decided to be friends,"

I said

"Naw, Jess you fucking decided that shit…..For me,"

"And so you did,"

"You are so fucking…..Controlling,"

He complained

"Get ready! And let’s fucking go! Move your ass!"

I snapped

"This is what I mean! You’re a fucking bitch!"

He pointed in anger

‘That’s right! Now, move it, Robson!"
I snapped

This lifestyle is forever, watch the game unfold
Shedding crocodile tears, just got life plus
And you wonder if these white judges like us
Just stay strong, we'll appeal, nigga, you'll be free
Down witcha to the very end
Cause you ain't never had a friend like me

He tried to put his baseball hat on and I violently tossed it across the room. He was fed up with my mood swings.

"I’m going to fuckin’ kick your ass, if you toss my shit around again!"

He snapped

"I’ll fucking cut you! Don’t start,"

I threatened

"Kiss it!"

He shoved me and I shoved him back. We started fighting like two grown kids as other Frat guys walked by. Bilal came out of his room to see what the bickering was about. He saw me with Wade in a headlock out in the hallway.

"Gosh, I’m trying to study! Cut it out!"
Snapped Bilal

"Bilal! Tell you’re fucking bitch to let go!"
Snapped Wade

‘I’m going to fucking kill you, you stupid fuck!"
I snapped

Bilal sighed as Wade squealed in pain.

"I’m serious I have to study ok? I mean this is real entertaining watching you children fight, Yo. But I want to get my homework done before we go to the Poetry Def Jam,"

Said Bilal

He closed his door and Wade got out of the headlock and I took off running. I knew the minute Wade got out of he was going to kill me. I was always giving him sucker punches or putting him in sudden headlocks and him getting me good after he got out of them. He chased me out of the frat house as we made our way to our destination.

Meanwhile………at my place Steve looked at Joey who was of course, surprise surprise, eating a sandwich! Steve remembered seeing Kelly and now knowing her horrible secret.

"So, why you looking at me like that?"

Chewed Joey

"Nothing,"

Smirked Steve

"You’re not hungry?"

"Yeah, but I was going to wait to get to Uncle Guido’s place to eat,"

"Me too, but I needed a sandwich to tide me over,"

Giggled Joey

Steve rolled his eyes and sighed.

"So, you seen Kell since you been here?"
Asked Steve

Joey stopped chewing and paused.

"No need to stop eating, I am just trying to make conversation. We don’t have enough brother to brother talks,"

Said Steve

"No, I haven’t,"

"You called her lately?"

"Why do you care?"

"I don’t,"

"Then shut up,"

Said Joey

"Shut your fucking face,"
said Steve

Steve got up from the kitchen table where Joey was.

"Why do you care if I see her or not?"

Asked Joey

"Fuck off,"
mumbled Steve

"Fuck you! You’re the one that is my fucking business!"

Steve did the famous Fatone point and said "You!"

"Fuck you!"

"No, fuck you!"
Said Steve

Steve giggled, as he was sure Joey had no idea that Kelly turned gay in a matter of three months. He was ready to let Joey know the truth but he pissed him off so he changed his mind.

"I’m going over to Uncle Guido’s,"

Said Steve

Joey finished his sandwich and followed.

"Don’t walk to close, or I will have to turn around and smack you one,"
threatened Steve

"Fuck you!"

"No, fuck you!"

"Kiss my fucking ass!"
Snapped Joey

Steve and Joey bickered all the way to Guido’s. Sigh! My cousins have so much love for each other.

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(JC)

Kelly walked into the dorm as I was watching college basketball on TNT. She smiled as she had just came back from one of her classes. I immediately remembered her making out with some chick. I was lying on Sierra’s bed with my head on her pillow. It smelled just like my Beautiful too.

"Hey, J what’s up?"

She greeted me

"Nothin’, just laying here collecting dust,"

She snickered, "Ok, that’s a new saying. Collecting dust?"

"Got that one from Chris. He’s a nutcase you know?"

I joked

She sat on her bed, which was right across from Si’s and went through her backpack. I was trying to decide if I should confront her about her sexuality that I knew, or just leave it alone. I was concerned my girl was going to walk in on her one night and then I have to listen to Si on the phone crying to me.

"Oh, I have so much homework,"

She sighed

"Yeah, I bet,"
I said

"So, is it ok if I crash here the rest of the weekend with you guys?"

I looked over at her, which I was trying to avoid eye contact because I didn’t want her to know I knew something was up.

"I don’t care. I mean this is your room too,"
I shrugged

"I just didn’t want to burden my friend anymore and stay with her. I mean Angie’s a great person,"

"Angie?"

I questioned

Angie was the girl that was at Jessica’s party. Very pretty, African American, hair weave like Chris, and well according to Joey she was gay. Could this be the chick she was fucking? No, it couldn’t of been I remembered Kell making out with a white girl, dark hair and well very hot. Or was it just the chick-kissing thing that I found hot? Hmm. I don’t know.

"Yeah, she’s really cool. We have English Lit together,"
she said

"Oh, really?"

"Yeah,"

I had nothing to say to Kell. I just didn’t look at her the same, maybe because I didn’t think she was that type of person that would up and be gay. I cracked a fake smile as I noticed my Beautiful was running late.

"So, Beautiful…..I mean Sierra should be here anytime,"

I said

"I can’t believe you still call her that,"

"Call her what?"

"Beautiful,"

"Well, she is beautiful. It’s just a pet name,"
I shrugged

Kelly smiled and nodded, ‘That’s so sweet, but that’s you. You have always been the sweet guy. J, you have no idea how many girls in high school wanted you guys to break up so they could have a crack at you. I mean you’re a girl’s dream, sweet, nice, and handsome,"

I looked at her from the corner of my eye. Of course I had a smart-ass comment that I thought to myself "Too bad you don’t look at guys that way. I’m sure this Angie chick is handsome too?"

"So, what are you up tonight? I heard Justin and Adrea are going to a Broadway show,"

Said Kelly

"Yeah, they are going to go see ‘Phantom of the Opera’,"

I answered

She nodded and walked over to her desk and started to work on her studies. She placed her apiece of her blonde hair that hung over her forehead behind her ear. I wanted to blur out my secret. I know you’re gay Kell! But I didn’t. It was at the edge of my tongue too. Was it any of my business what she preferred? No of course not and damn Joey still had his hopes up from her.

I put the remote down and sighed. I was dying to ask. I know, I know…. I’m a nosy ass, but you knew that.

"So, Kell you came back here last night?"

I asked

I looked down when I asked that. She looked over at me all-nervous.

"No, why?"

She asked

Oh! And then she fucking lies about it!

"You sure?"
I asked

She put her pencil down and looked at me because she finally caught on I knew something was up.

"Did you come back here last night?"

She asked

"Of course, Si and I slept here last night,"

She nodded and crossed her arms, "So what did you see?"

"Was I suppose to see something?"

Ok, so I was getting smart about it. But she was so beating around the gay bush.

"You didn’t see anything,"

She said

I snickered at her comment and sat up. She looked crossed at me and she was ready for me to say what I saw.

"I saw you, Kell. I saw you and her,"

I said

"Her?"

"Don’t play,"

"I’m not,"

Said Kelly

"How long have you been this way?"

She didn’t answer as she suddenly got up from the desk like she was ready to smack me one. I wasn’t scared. She walked over to me and sat.

"It’s not what you think,"
she said

"Oh, I think it is!"
I laughed

"J, you saw me and Melissa just laying there,"

"Kissing,"

"No, we weren’t kissing,"

"Naked…..Kissing,"

I smiled

"It wasn’t like that,"

"Naked, kissing, fucking,"
I said

She sat back and thought about her secret.

"I mean that’s your business……..But does Sierra know?"

I asked

"No, and don’t say anything,"
she scolded

"Gees, chill I wasn’t going to. It’s not my place,"

"No one knows,"

"Why?"

"Because,"

She stood up and walked over to the desk and sat.

"Well, can I ask you something?"
I asked

"What?"

"Is it because Joey didn’t marry you?"

"What?"

She asked

"Well, I know you tripped when he left you at the courthouse…. Well he showed up, but then he didn’t want to get married. So I thought maybe you turned homo…or bi-sexual because Joey did it to you,"

"No, it has nothing to do with what happened to with me and Jo,"

"Ok,"

She sat there all nervous, as she couldn’t even do her homework.

"It’s up to you, but you know Si is all sensitive about this gay stuff,"
I said

"I know she told me about her scary Lesbian encounter,"

"No, I mean with her dad being straight one minute and then turning gay the next,"

"I just want to say one thing, I’m not a Lesbian,"

"So, you’re bi?"

I asked

She shook her head no.

"You still like guys too?"

I asked

"Yeah, look I am not going to discuss my sexuality with you, J,"

"Good, because it’s a little shocking and confusing,"

"I’m just ……. I’m trying to find myself,"

She said

"So, kissing chicks is the answer?"

She shook her head in frustration and said, "Just don’t tell Si ok?"

"I wasn’t going to,"

"I’ll tell her when I am ready,"

"Ok, just watch the kissing thing in front of her…..I mean that will be a dead give away,"

She gave me a dirty look. Suddenly Sierra walked in, looking all mad.

"What’s wrong Si?"
I asked

"I quit school!"
She snapped

"What?"
I asked

We looked at her in shock.

============================

Kai walked into Bilal with a smirk on his face. Bilal’s room was decorated from pictures of the past, such as Malcolm X and Martin Luther King, and a big poster of the movie ‘School Daze’ above his bed. Billie Holiday’s ‘Prelude to a Kiss’ played on his CD player.

"What’s up, Dawg?"
Asked Bilal

"Wassup,"

He giggled

"What’s tickling your side?"

"Man, so I kick it over to ole’ girl’s place and shit right,"

"Who Adrea?"

"Yeah, so I go and mess around just to make her all nervous,"

"Her man there?"

Bilal asked as he peaked over his reading glasses.

"Yeap, I had to piss her off,"

"Why you fuck with her in the first place if she gotta man?"

"Why she fuck with me if she has one? Don’t put that shit on me, Son,"

Said Kai

"Scandalize,"

Said Bilal

"So, what’s going on with you and Jezza?"

"We coo,"

"Meaning what?"

"We coo,"
he said still looking over his reading glasses at him

"Won’t say huh?"

"We coo,"

"You so fucking private and shit,"

Said Kai

"My business,"

Said Bilal

"So, you like her?"

"Dang, still in my video and shit,"

"Well, you wont let me know shit,"

Said Kai

"Just like Wade gotta know shit. I know why Wade wants to know, he’s all protective over her because the best friend shit,"

"Well, I don’t think it will affect yours and his friendship if you stop fucking her,"

"Naw, Wade and I are coo like that, Jezza ain’t taken it serious,"

"Are you?"

"We fuck and once again Malakai it’s my business,"

Kai nodded and squirmed at Bilal’s studies, "You and cutting up bodies and shit,"

"Well, I go down to the coroners office tomorrow and I get to dig my hands in a body. I cant wait, you wanna see what the inside of your stomach look like?"

Kai back way as Bilal flipped his textbook to the human stomach.

"You know Bilal we coo until you start talking about that coroner shit,"

"Your stomach got all these cool parts,"

"Um, don’t care,"

"I can’t wait until I start to inter at the morgue,"

Smiled Bilal

"You and the stiffs,"

Sighed Kai

"Well, I gotta a lot of studying to do before we go out,"

"Ain’t then see yah,"

Said Kai

Kai started to leave.

"Malakai?"

Called Bilal

"What?"

"So why you messing with that Cuban girl for real?"

"My business,"
teased Kai

"Aiight,"

Giggled Bilal

Kai walked out of his room.

Meanwhile……….I and Wade walked into the student union café and there was no sign of Josh and Sierra. Wade saw Heidi and sighed.

"She’s here,"

He said

"Now be nice,"

I said

"Tell her ass to be nice to me, shit,"

"Shhhhh,"

I shush

"Pssh,"

"Don’t start that shit,"

"Pssh,"

Heidi walked over with her long highlights, brown eyes, and thin waist. Wade who had dated Heidi for three seconds freshmen (almost 2 yrs ago) put on his bad boy image and ignored her.

"Hey, Kid,"

Said Heidi

"Hey,"
I smiled

After Angie came out of the closet she tried to bust game with Heidi. Heidi of course wasn’t gay and I was so happy, because I started to wonder after Angie’s coming out that I was the only straight one. Wade? He’s a little fucking fagot to me even if he’s not gay.

"Wade?"

Smiled Heidi

No matter how much Wade dissed her she always liked him. She had moved on to this one guy named Kurt, he was in the frat Segma Phi Delta. He was aiight, I wouldn’t date him. Wade was being the stuck up bustard he was.

"Wassup,"

He asked

I meanwhile looked all around to see if I could find my victims.

"So, you’re looking good Heidi,"

He said with a plain look

"Thanks, you too,"

She smiled so hard at him you thought her face was going to fall off. Wade sighed and looked over at me, "let’s eat, Yo,"

"One second,"
I said

"One second what?"

"One fucking second,"

"What are we waiting for?"

He asked

"Stop badgering me,"

"What?"
He snapped

"STOP…….FUCKING…….BADGERING…….ME"
I snapped

He gave me a look and walked over to some people he knew.

"Good, keep yourself busy. He’s so bitchy today,"
I said

Heidi looked over at him; "He’s so fucking fine, why does he have to an asshole,"

"He’s a bitch that’s why,"

I shrugged

We laughed. Sigh! Where is Sierra and Josh?

====================

Adrea waited outside the theater that the ‘Phantom of the opera’ was playing. She had the tickets in her hand waiting for Justin to return. He stepped away for a moment, the show was going to start any minute and she was worried he got kidnapped. She started to ask the pusher byers if they saw him.

"You sure you didn’t see him? He has blonde curly hair, big time attitude, self centered little weirdo about 6 feet?"

When they said they didn’t know she went to the next person.

"He thinks he’s black. He may be trying to pass himself off as high yellow?"

The people said no and snickered.

"He’s a little idiot, you can’t miss him. I mean that in a good way,’
said Adrea

They continued to say no.

"Ok, thank you,"

She said

Soon Justin appeared and she snapped, "We almost missed the show because of you,"

He smiled as he hid something behind his back, "I was gone like five minutes,"

"What are you hiding? Did you steal something from the homeless guy on the corner again? Gees, Ju-Ju give the man back his mug of pencils,"

"I didn’t steal anything,"

He then pulled out a little bouquet of flowers. Her heart sang as she got all emotional.

"Oh, you’re going to make my eye liner run, that’s so sweet,"

She said

She hugged him and smelled her flowers.

"I thought this is a special night so I would be nice,"

Said Justin

She paused and then snickered, "Only tonight I get flowers,"

"Give me a second, this is nice shit is new to me yet,"

He joked

The ticket booth lady announced, "Show starts in five minutes,"

They walked inside this world famous theater and took their seats in nosebleed aisle which, is all the way up on the balcony.

"Gees, Adrea this is the closest you could get?"

He asked

"What do you want for getting tickets last minute,"

She said

"By the way, you look really nice tonight,"

She had on a blue velvet dress and he had on a sweater and dress pants.

"Thanks, my little curly bandit,"

She said

They sat in their seats.

"Well, if we have to go to the bathroom and want to avoid falling over the balcony…..I suggest we hold in our pee,"

Said Adrea

The couple in front of them turned and gave them a look when she said that. Adrea and Justin gave them a look back.

"Dang, they dipping in our conversation,"

Said Justin

"I know,"

Said Adrea

The couple turned back around and Justin pulled out three candy bars from his pockets.

"I stopped by the news stand outside where I bought your flowers. I thought we could use a snack during the show,"
he said

"One problem,"

"What’s that?"

"Chocolate…..Every since I was pregnant…..Gives me the…shits,"

The couple that was in front of them again turned and gave them a look.

"What? It’s the truth…I poop from chocolate,"
said Adrea

"Please, Miss we are trying to watch the show,"

Said the woman

"Well, I ain’t lying…now turn your ass around, besides the show hasn’t started yet, duh,"

Snapped Adrea

"Oh, see now my girl has to get ghetto on you,"

Said Justin

"Turn around, WOM----MAN!’

Said Adrea

The couple turned back around.

"Besides, there will be previews before the actually show. Ain’t it? I mean I’m right, right?"

Asked Justin

"Ju, this isn’t like the movies and shit. This is like the Nutcracker Suite,"

"Well, shoot then what do they do for previews,"

"They have the orchestra play corny music,"
said Adrea

"To put us to sleep,"

Sighed Justin

The orchestra started to play music as Justin put his arm around Adrea. He then kissed her neck and whispered, "I’m going to fuck the shit out of you tonight,"

She giggled and turned bright red, "you’re so naughty,"

"I know hee-hee,"

She put her hand in his and they kissed.

"Is your roommate going to be there tonight?"

He asked

"Yeah,"

"Well, shit! Adrea when can we fuck?"

"Shhhhhhh,"

She shushed

The couple in front of them turned around again. Justin who was already frustrated his pussy was right in his face and it was untouchable because another pussy was rooming with them, snapped!

"Yeah I said it!"

He snapped at the couple

"Ju, chill,"

"Nope, it’s just not fair. First, it’s that time of the month, now it’s Courtney and this fucking couple staring at me,"
he grumbled

The couple turned back around. Adrea patted Justin’s hand to calm him down.

"I bet they get to fuck tonight with out an added roommate package,"

He pointed to the couple

"Ju, we will work this out,"

"How?"

"I don’t know yet,’

"Well, hurry up,"

"Shhhhhhh,"

Justin put his head on her shoulder, "I just wanna show you I really, really, really miss you,"

"I know baby,"
she giggled

The show finally started and Justin sighed, "About time, because White folks all in our video,"

The couple that was in front of them turned to them again.

"Yeap, and I’m light skinned by the way, my daughter is Cuban,"
said Justin all proud

"Baby, so what?"

Asked Adrea

"I was just saying,"

The couple turned back around.

"What is this show about again? A chick that falls in love with a ghost? What type of tickets did Johnny get us? This going to stupid I can tell,"

Said Justin looking at the program

"Justin chill,"
said Adrea

Justin leaned over and pucker his lips, "Kissy, please,"

She kissed him and he opened up one of the candy bars.

"Let’s watch,"
she said

"This is going to suck or as Chris says….this is going to suck pee water,"

====================

4of10

(Sierra)

"I quit!"
I said

"What? You cant,"
said Josh

I sat on the bed with Josh and sloughed.

"What happened, Si,"

Said Kelly

"That fucking Chuku!"
I snapped

"Oh, bless you,"

Said Josh

"No, J his name is Chuku,"
I said

"Oh, thought you sneezed their for a moment,"
he snickered

"He fucking hates me! I can’t even drop his course! I flunked his test and whatever else!"

I vented

"Well, maybe you can take it over,"

Said Kelly

‘This isn’t high school, Kell…….plus I already asked him……that fucking African bush bustard,"
I said

"Maybe you can take extra credit,"
said Josh

‘Once again this is not high school where everything is fixable……..Plus already asked,"

"Well, how much of this test counts towards your grade?"
Asked Kelly

"It doesn’t matter,"

"Yes it does. How much?"

Asked Kelly

I sighed and crossed my arms, "three percent,"

They looked at me with smirks on their faces.

"Don’t be looking at me like that. I mean I have passed each test…….not aced it…but I have passed each test except this one! That fucker gives me a big fat ‘F’…….you know what ‘F’ stands for?"

I vented

"Yeah, and Lance knows what ‘P’ stands for,"

Snickered Josh

"FAILURE! I AM A FUCKING FAILURE WHO CANT FUCKING CHEER UNTIL SOPHOMORE YEAR….."

"Cool, Si you liked rhymed,"

smiled Josh

I gave him an annoyed look and he stopped smiling.

"It’s no the end of the world! I mean you can still pass this course,"
said Kelly

"No, see you don’t understand…….this fucking Chuku asshole is out to get me,"
I said

"Baby, he’s not out to get you,"

Said Josh

‘I see it in his eyes! It’s pure African bush evil, Josh! He’s wants to hurt me with his fucking walking stick! He going to beat me like a fucking zebra!"

"Baby, you’re over reacting,"

"Josh, you have no idea I mean this guy is like Charles Manson in a Dashiki,"

Josh had a smirk, "That was a good one,"

I once again gave him a look and he stopped with the fucking jokes. Guys can be so stupid sometimes.

"Well, maybe if you talk to him,"
siad Kelly

"Well I guess it doesn’t matter,"
I sighed

"Well, I have a lot of work to do. Plus aren’t you suppose to meet up with Jess?"
Asked Kelly

Josh and I looked at each other.

"Shit,"
I said

We grabbed our stuff and left. Kelly sat down and suddenly there was a knock on her door. She opened it and it was Angie. She welcomed her with a kiss.

"Hey, baby you left this morning without saying goodbye,"

Smiled Angie

"Sorry,"

said Kelly

Meanwhile……………..

Wade was talking with his Frat friends as Jessica paced back and forth waiting for us to show up.

==========================

Rome sat on in his bedroom as he had his suitcase open. His mom walked in all packed to go back to Orlando. Rome was still on edge by the sudden incident a couple days a go. He still remembered the three unidentified men coming in his home and threatening him.

"You wanna come back to Orlando for awhile? Are you sure?"

She asked

"Yeah, I can’t do anything with my recording, touring, etc. I have to let my injuries heal,"

"Well, I think the surgeon did a great reconstructed your features,"

"Yeah, I was impressed, he said in a couple weeks I will be like new,"

Said Rome

"Well, pack up and we will get ready to go,"

She walked out as he pulled the handgun he had been carrying around with him ever since that night of when the men threatened him. He was so on edge and he was trigger crazy. He felt like 2 Pac had entered his body and he had turned into his alert friend. He was constantly checking to make sure he had enough bullets in it. He was also looking out the window and watching his back for unexpected people. The only people he saw checking him out were the media people taking pictures of him to post in magazine and the newspaper.

"Maybe I will feel saver if I go back home for awhile,"

He said to himself

He placed the gun in his duffel bag and started to pack. After he was done he called Aaliyah and told her he was leaving. She was ok with that. He then called another person.

"Hello?"

Asked the female voice

"Hey, girl what’s up?"

"Rome?"

"Yeah, it’s me,"
he giggled

‘How are you?"

"Fine, look I am coming to Orlando for a bit and thought we could hook up and talk? Chill, you know,"
he said

"Ok, sounds good,"

"Mo, um sorry about how things have been going. I know I haven’t been a good person to get in touch with. I mean look how I have been treating the people that are the closest to Josh ,you, and Todd. I promise to make it up to you, aiight?"
He assured

"Ok,"

She said

"I miss you,"

"Me too,"

" I love you,"

He said

She didn’t answer and they soon hung up. He bit his lip and then smiled, as he would soon see Mo again. He started to pack.

==============================

Flashback to early 80’s…………Cruz’s backyard in Orlando,Florida……Josh and Adrea are five years old as Joel is seven. The children play hide and go seek around the old oak tree.

"1,2,3,4,………..,"

Counted Josh

He had his hands covered facing the tree as giggles of Joel and Adrea surrounded him. Adrea was hiding by the lawn chair and Joel hid by porch, Joel yelled, "Count til ten!"

"I can’t count that high!"
Said Josh

"Try!"
Yelled Joel

Josh uncovered his eyes and counted on his fingers, "1,2,3,5,6,7………8……..9…10! Ready or not! Here I come!"

Josh ran all over looking for his sister and his stepbrother. Alfredo stood by the back door staring at the kids through the screen. He was amazed how much Adrea was starting to look like Josh. He still was trying to come to grips with Adrea not being his daughter. Marie was cooking the kids’ lunch as she listened to Merengue music.

"Alfredo, can you set the table,"

She asked

Alfredo studied Josh’s action, so innocence and sweet, but looked just like Richard, which didn’t sit right with him. He couldn’t stand the sight of Richard yet look at Josh. He only stood silence about the idea of Adrea and Josh being close, because of their sibling status.

"Al?"

She asked

He turned to her and sighed, "Yeah,"

"Can you set the table?"

He gave her a look and walked over and grabbed another beer. Their marriage of a year was on the rocks from her cheating and his new found hobby…..Called drinking. He pretended like he didn’t hear her request and walked into the livingroom to watch TV. She sighed and walked over to him. He sat on the couch and drank his beer.

"So, I assume that’s a no?"

She asked

"I don’t want to fight,"

He said

"I don’t neither,"

"Then make lunch,"

He ordered

"You know he’s scared of you,"

He looked over at her and shrugged, "So what?"

"He’s a little boy Alfredo. He doesn’t know why you don’t like him,"

"Ask Richard, he will tell him,"

"He’s five year old, he likes coming here to play with them,"

"Don’t start,"

He warned

She wiped her hands on the dishrag and said, "Why don’t you just try?"

He sipped his beer and said, "I don’t have to TRY as you said. I married you, I took Adreanna as my own, I can’t do anymore,"

"If you like it or not Joshua is a part of our lives. He’s Adreanna brother,"

"And I wonder why that is,"

He said all smart.

She stormed away as Josh and the others came in the livingroom. They had been playing in the sandbox and were covered in sand. Josh who was scared of Al stood on the side as Joel and Adrea ran over to their father. Josh liked coming there to eat ethnic food and playing with Adreanna and Joel, but feared Al. He was always drunk Adrea and Joel were use to smelling booze on their dad’s breath. Josh wasn’t use to it because his folks didn’t drink all the time. Al always gave him looks and yelled at him for doing the littlest things.

"Papi, I got thingy on my arm,"

Said Adrea

Adrea showed him her sore.

"How you get Adreanna?"

He asked

She shrugged. As the kids told their dad Josh slipped into the kitchen by Marie. Marie loved Josh and always comforted him when he came there. She was like a second mom to him. He walked over to her and she hugged him as he clanged to her hip.

"What’s wrong baby?"

She asked

He pouted and shrugged.

"Why you sad?"

He shrugged again until Alfredo came in the kitchen as Adrea and Joel walked in. He shied away when he showed his face.

"You guys up to the bathroom and wash up, ok?"

He ordered

Adrea and Joel took off running to the bathroom as Josh stood in the corner pouting as he touched the wallpaper.

"Hey, Joshua"

He said with a firm voice

Josh shivered at the sound of Al’s voice. He slowly turned and look. Alfredo pointed towards the bathroom.

"Bath, now!"
He ordered

Josh ran like hell to the bathroom as he felt like he couldn’t get there fast enough because of his fear of Al. He felt like what ever he did was never fast enough or good enough.

"See what I mean he’s scared of you,"

Said Marie

"Well, maybe if they made him behave at home, I wouldn’t have to be so hard on him. Rich and Sarah let that boy do whatever he wants. Did you see that scratch on Adreanna’s arm?"

"They were playing Al,"

"He plays too rough with her! She’s a little girl!"

"He’s a little boy! Their kids!"

She said

Alfredo mumbled insults in Spanish about Josh and stormed out of the room. Josh, who was standing by the frame of the room, heard what he said about him. Alfredo gave him an evil stare and pointed, "Go now!"

Josh sobbed hysterically as Alfredo grabbed him by his arm into the bathroom.

"Wash up!"
He ordered

Josh shook in fear as Alfredo turned the faucet on as Adrea and Joel watched on the side. Josh continued to cry as he shoved him hands under the water.

"You don’t listen. Why? Huh? You come to my home; Joshua and you listen to me! You heard me?"

Snapped Al

Joshua looked down as staring at Al could cause him to go blind.

"Stop crying! You’re a boy! Boys don’t cry! Joel isn’t crying!"
Snapped Alfredo

Josh didn’t look at Joel, which made Al angry.

"Look at him! Now!"
Snapped Al

He made Josh turn to Joel. Joel looked over at Josh with a sorry look. Josh’s tears continued to fall from his eyes.

"You’re a sissy, Josh! You see, Joel doesn’t cry!"

Said Al

Josh continued to tremble in fear as Al tossed him a towel.

"Wipe your hands lunch is ready,"

Said Al

Alfredo who was drunk staggered out of the room. Josh fell to his knees and sobbed. Adrea and Joel walked over. Joel closed the bathroom door as Adrea sat with Josh.

"Josh, stop crying before he comes back,"

Said Adrea

"He doesn’t like me,"

Sobbed Josh

"Stop crying,"

Said Joel

"Yeah, stop before he gets mad again,"

Said Adrea

They got Josh to his feet and wiped his tears. He still trembled as Joel tried to make him smile.

"Wanna play with G.I Joe after we eat?’

Asked Joel

Josh nodded slowly. Joel put his arm around him and they walked out.

"Why doesn’t he like, me Joel?"

Asked Josh

"I don’t know, but you gotta do better,"

Said Joel

"Yeah, remember he tells you that,"

Said Adrea

"I don’t know how to do better,"

Said Josh

"Don’t worry we will help you,"

Said Adrea

Flashback to current………

Alfredo sat on top of the hospital table as him and Marie waited for the doctor come in.

"I should of stop drinking,"
said Al

Marie didn’t answer.

"That’s why I need a liver transplant. It’s all my fault; I did it to myself. I’m going to be the death of me,"

He said

Marie rubbed his back; "You’re going to get another liver,"

"I’m going to die, Marie,"

"Don’t say that,"

"I won’t see Neva start pre-school,"

"You will,"

"No, I’m still on the donor list and I am getting weaker and weaker,"

He said

The doctor walked in with some paperwork.

"You have been put on the list of first priorty, Al,"

Said the doctor

"Ok, when do I become a priority?"

Asked Al

"As soon as a liver that matches you comes in,"

"Which could be never,"

Said Al

===============

We arrived at Student Union Café of course late. I consider it being fashionably late. We saw Jessica and she happily walked over to us.

"Hey, chicah!"

She smiled

"Sorry, we’re late, I was venting at the dorm room about Chuku,"

I said

"I thought you were sure you were going to do great on that test,"

"I did! That fucking Chuku flunked me on persist,"

I vented

"Oh, please don’t get her started,"

Said Josh

"I’m not starting!"
I snapped

Josh got quiet as we walked over to a booth. Jessica looked back at Wade who was still barking like a stupid frat boy and not realizing what her true plan was. Heidi nudged Jessica.

"Well, gotta go, I did my job,"

Said Heidi

‘Thanks,"

Said Jessica

Heidi whispered, "Why do you want Wade with get with this girl when she got a really cute boyfriend already?"

"Because he’s my best friend and he likes her. It’s my duty to cause chaos and make Wade happy,"

"Oh, ok Jess,"

She laughed

"Catch you later, Son,"

Said Jessica

"Aiight, no prob,"

Heidi and Jessica slapped five and she turned to Josh and me.

"Well, I will go get my friend so we can have dinner,"

Said Jessica

"I thought that girl you were talking to was your friend,"

Said Josh

"Well, she is but, she’s not who is eating with us,"

"Who is?"

I asked

She looked over at Wade who finally caught her eye. I sighed and said, "Tell me you didn’t,"

Jessica looked at me and smiled, "I did what? I did nothing,"

"What did she do?"

Asked Josh

"I don’t wanna eat with him, ok Jess,"
I said

"Eat with who?"

Josh asked

"Look, he wanted to come and make this feud end between you to,"

Said Jessica

‘I doubt it, he’s a fucking asshole,"
I explained

"Now, enough with the pet names,"

Joked Jessica

"Let me guess, could it be Wade?"

Asked Josh

"He’s a fucking asshole……oh wait I bet he was gloating on his ‘A’ from class too?"

I asked

Jessica waved him over. Wade noticed me and came over cautiously and of course (sigh) giving me looks. Fuck you too, Wade.

"Wassup?"

He asked

"Let’s eat,"

Smiled Jessica

Wade took one look at Josh and me and snarled, "With them? Please,"

"Is there a problem?"

Asked Josh

Ok, well punk ass Wade of course was dying for a fight with Josh and me. As usual he had that fucking stick up his ass. Wade backed up with that gangster act and let out an arrogant laugh.

"I’m out Jess,"

He said

"No, you’re not! Poetry Def Jam doesn’t start for forty-five minutes,"

Said Jessica

"You eat with them………I will eat with my friends,"

"I’m your fucking friend,"

He gave me and Josh a look and let out his famous "Pssh!" and walked away.

"Robson, get your fucking stuck up ass over here!"

Snapped Jessica

Wade waved his middle finger at her and kept on walking.

"He’s a little bitchy tonight,"

She smiled

"He’s a little bitchy every day,"
I said

"What’s with him?"

Asked Josh

"He has a stick up his ass and he thinks he’s hot shit,"

I explained

"Waders!"

Called Jessica

He ignored her as he went to get his food. Jessica sighed as her plan was foiled once again. She sat down in the booth with us and sighed in disappointment.

"Why do you hang out with him if he’s so mean?"
Asked Josh

Jessica gave Josh a look and said, "He’s my best friend, bitch or not……he’s my buddy,"

"Oh,"

Said Josh

"But, you’re not like him at all,"

I said

"Yes, I am. I’m Jezza the down ass bitch, remember?"

"Well, why did you invite him if you know we don’t like each other?"

I asked

We waited for her answer and she suddenly changed the subject.

"So, did you notice anything about your friend Kelly?"

She asked

Josh who was drinking his soda started to choke as he wondered if Jessica was speaking of Kelly’s newfound hobby, Lesbianism. I patted Josh on his back as Jessica hoped he choked to death and Wade could finally be with me. Josh got his breath and Jessica continued.

"Well, Si did you notice anything?"

Asked Jessica

Josh sat in silence as he waited for Jessica’s intro.

"No, what’s new with her except the fact she’s very busy,"
I said

Jessica snickered and said, ‘Well, you know my friend Angie the chick who has more balls than Wade? Well, she’s gay,"

"I knew that,"

Said Josh

"Well, me too,"

I said

"Josh, you’re really cute by the way,"
said Jessica

I looked over at Josh who blushed.

"Now, Sierra don’t turn into the jealous bitch because I know you guys are like attached by the hip…….but Josh is a real cutie pie,"

Said Jessica

"Oh, on,"

Blushed Josh

"Go on with the compliments or about Kelly?"

"About Kelly,"

He smiled

"Cute smile and everything………wow, just noticed this right now,"

"What about Kelly?"

He blushed

‘I’m not ugly, but she’s an ugly bitch,"

She teased

"Jessica, she’s not ugly,"

I said

"Oh, stop it! I mean just because you are down with her doesn’t mean she’s cute! She’s not! I’m cute, she’s ugly, another reason to not like her, including what Angie told me,"

Josh stopped drinking as the truth was coming out about Kelly.

"So, Kelly’s gay,"

Said Jessica plainly

I laughed at her confession. Josh didn’t, as he knew it was true.

"How long have you known?"

He asked

I stopped laughing, as Josh seemed to know what she knew.

"Since, like the night we went to the club, saw them kiss,"

Said Jessica

I sat there in shock. It couldn’t be

"I saw her last night getting on with a chick in the dorm and I asked her about it,"

Said Josh

"What did she say?"
She asked

"She wasn’t,"

"She’s such a fucking liar! See I knew I didn’t like her for a reason. Joey should be so happy he’s not with her gay ass!"

"Wait! Wait, you both know! She’s not gay,"

I said

Josh and Jessica looked at me like I had rocks in my head.

"Hon, she’s gay,"
said Jessica

"No,"

I said

"Baby, she’s gay,"

Confirmed Josh

"No, she’s not,"
I said

Jessica waved over to Wade. He sighed and looked away.

"That fucker is still being a bitch. Anyway, yeap Kelly digs chicks,"

Said Jessica

"But, but, he loves Joey,"

I said

"Not as much as she loves Angie and Mel,"

Said Jessica

"Mel?"

I asked

"That’s the chick I saw her making out with,"
said Josh

"Where was I?"
I asked

"In lah-lah land I assume,"
said Jessica

I then remember Kelly coming home that night and being all-secretive in the hallway with someone and thinking she did in fact kiss a chick. I sat back and gasped. "Oh my god you’re right! Kell’s gay!"

"See, told yah!"

Pointed Jessica

"You know?"

Asked Josh

‘Well, she was hiding this new found friend one night and I was sure she kissed someone out in the hallway……….yew, she kissed a chick,"
I said

"She fucked her too, Melissa and Ang,"
nodded Jessica

"You ok, Si?"

Asked Josh

My mouth was still open with shock about Kelly. She was hiding a naughty secret.

"She’s gay!"
I said

"Gayer than a door knob,"
said Jessica

Jessica once again waved Wade over and he let out a "Pssh" and turned away.

"Damn it, now I have to kick Wade’s ass for the second time tonight. That boy never gets enough,"
she sighed

"She’s fucking gay, on my god,"

I said

Josh rubbed my back as I tried to come to grips with the news.

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5of10

(Joey)

It was the day we were ready to leave New York, we were at our final interview with ‘Teen People’ and we were to go straight to the airport. We were able to say our good-byes to friends and whatever else. When the interview was over we mobbed once again by fans outside the magazine building. It was a great feeling but I was still missing one thing I had hoped to complish while I was in my old town, to talk to Kelly. Between Josh, Steve, and Jessica they were acting very odd when I mentioned her name.

"Why do you wanna see Kell?"

Asked Josh

"What do you mean why do I wanna see her?"

I asked

"Well, I mean she’s moved on,"

"Josh, why are you trying to push me away from seeing her?"

"Don’t you think if she wanted to see you she would of by now?"

He asked

I didn’t answer as we road back to the dorms in a cab. I decided to follow him back to the dorms so maybe I could see her. Josh and Kelly decided Lesbianism away from me to avoid anymore heartbreak.

"I mean, it’s obvious she doesn’t want to be bothered,"
said Josh

"I don’t wanna talk about this with you anymore ok?"

"Why because I’m tell you the truth,"

He asked

I gave him a look and snarled, "Stay out of it, J,"

"Fine, I will but, you are just setting yourself up for another heart break,"

"Stay……….out……..of……..it,"
I warned

He got quiet as I stared out of the window as we passed all the high skyscrapers on the way to the dorms. I missed her blonde hair, big brown eyes, and her laugh. I even missed Kelly’s evil side. I ran my finger in a circular motion on the window thinking about her.

We pulled up to the dorm and got out. I stared at the dorm that inhabited Kelly. Josh walked ahead of me inside, as he was sad he had to say goodbye to Sierra. I followed slowly as he got to their floor. I had never been there and well it was so new to me. We got to their door and my heart raced as he opened it. We walked in and J hugged Sierra tightly. I smiled as I placed my hands in my pockets. I remembered when Kell and me had that type of relationship. It seems so long ago. I looked around and there was no sight of her. Sierra soon hugged me.

"I’m going to miss you too, Jo,"
she said

"Me too, Si,"

I said

We backed away as they could see my sadness that she wasn’t there. Sierra looked over at Kell’s area.

"She at the library and actually she should be back any moment,"

Said sierra

‘That’s ok, I mean came here on a possible chance encounter with her,"
I shrugged

Sierra hugged me again as for the first time I wished I had a girl like her. Josh was so lucky to have her. We all envied their relationship. I sat on her bed as I stared over at Kelly’s stuff. She was still a messy housekeeper. I smiled as I remembered going to her house back in Orlando and sitting right in the middle of a mound of clothes in her room. I once hated it but now wish I could relive that memory. At least we were still together back then.

"We should do something with him…..Like we could do something all together,"
Josh whispered to Sierra

They agreed and knew they had to get me out of that room before I had crying moment.

"Wanna go for a walk, Jo?"
Asked sierra

I looked over at her and shook my head no; just then my cell phone went off. I answered it and it was Johnny saying our flight was cancelled and we couldn’t leave until the next morning. I sighed as I had such a horrible time in New York and I wanted to get out of there.

"We cant leave until tomorrow,"
I sighed

Josh and Sierra of course were thrilled. They hugged, as soon there was a knock on the door. In walked Justin and Adrea.

"We don’t leave now until tomorrow,’
beamed Justin

"Yeah, we heard,"

Said Josh

They looked over at me and I sadly was staring at the floor feeling trapped in this city of hell. Adrea walked over and put her head on my shoulder with her arm me.

"Joeybear, I’m going to miss you,"
she said

I smiled and hugged her.

"Let’s go kick it!"

Said Justin

"Let’s start…..spreading the ……neeeeeews,"

Sang Josh with his Frank Sintara impression.

"Let’s hit the town!"
Said Sierra

"I want to……wake up……in the……city…..that never…….Sleeeeeeep,"

Sang Josh

"J, you’re ruining a perfectly good Sintara song, cut it out,"

I said

"Then smile, and let’s go,"

He ordered

So we were off, unfortunately fans mobbed us all over the city. We had to run away and not even think about venturing into the tourist area. So I took my friends to Uncle Guido’s, in Brooklyn’s Little Italy. My family of course is very loud and out spoken.

"I placed a fucking bet on the Packer-ahs! And they fucking loose!"
Snapped Guido

He was sitting on the couch in the livingroom when we walked in the house. My aunt Karyn walked over and hugged and kissed me. My two cousins Fredrico and Guido Jr. were out on the streets causing chaos. They were full time employees in the Italian mob ring. My whole family was but they cousins were really into it. Someone had to pass the family ties down to the next generation and it was my cousins and of course my brother Pauly. Pauly and my dad worked Orlando, my cousin Nicky and Uncle Franco ran the mob ties in Chicago, and Guido Jr. And Fredrico ran the New York area with my uncle Guido. They were bad asses too, you didn’t want to fuck with them or be caught in a dark alley with them. My whole family had ties to the mob, even if you didn’t work directly with them, you still were connected. Even if you declined to work for them you still had to be connected, like Jessica, Steve, and me. It’s a family thing, if you were born a Fatone…….you were a Fatone…………part of the Fatone Million dollar mob tie……that stretched from Sicily across the united states. We were all over, if you had a fatone in the phone book, chances are they were related to us and had a tie to the mob.

Fatones were so powerful we had people in high places such as the government working for us. FBI, CIA, and the rest of the law in forcement couldn’t touch us. We had Fatones in prison, but we never stayed long, there was always a way to get out of jail or prison.

"Look at these fucking Packer-ahs!"

Uncle Guido pointed to the TV.

I nodded and hugged him. He looked at my friends and nodded.

"Introduce, Joey, introduce,"
he ordered

"They were at the graduation,"

I said

"So I look like a fucking genius? Do I look like I can remember-ah everyone’s faces?"

He said

"Um, this is Josh, Justin, Adrea, and Sierra,"

I said

He shook everyone’s hand and like a humble Italian offered them a good meal.

"Karyn cook some pasta,"

Said Guido

"Oh, no please don’t go out your way,"

Said Josh

"J, chill……we can have a good Italian meal,"

Justin whispered

"Don’t be selfish,"
said Josh

"I’m not, it’s my stomach that is,"
said Justin

"Aunt Karyn you don’t have to,"

I said

"Nonsense, Jo,"

She said walking in the kitchen

Guido of course was giving sierra and Adrea the evil eye off and on. He was little racist but kept his comments to himself. As I knew my dad, Uncle Franco, Sal, and Uncle Guido talked about me and Jessica’s non-Italian friends. They didn’t understand how we could venture out like we do. Oh well.

"So……,"

Said Uncle Guido

He always assumed he had to make conversation with everyone he came in contact with. I think it was due to Fatone gossip about what the young family members were up to. Jessica was always the talk of the Fatones.

"So, you know my Jessica?"

He asked

Jessica of course was the special fatone. She was few of out six fatone girls of out the thirty nephews, aunts, uncles, and cousins there were. A Fatone girl was rare so they were put on a display. It was no surprised when an aunt or a cousin got pregnant and had a boy, but it was a huge deal if they gave birth to a girl. Even the aunts and uncle from Italy come to see the ripe happening. Jessica was always getting money, gifts, and free apartments just because she was a girl.

"Yeah, they know Jessica,"

I said

"That’s the baby of the family. She’s going to make something of herself, she’s special. She’s going to be a doctor or a lawyer. She goes to that college over-ah there-ah,"

He pointed

He did that famous Fatone pointing. The pointing that put a fatone on the map, it went back to the 1800’s…..Pointing got a Fatone a lot of things. We own most of New York, including all the bars, most of the nightclubs, and some of Broadway, and of course the drug trade that also went for Chicago too.

"Yeah, dad Jessica’s going to make something of herself,"
I said

If only they saw her last report card. She barely passed any of her classes. She was too busy dancing down at Club Static and messing with Bilal to worry about class. She didn’t want to be a doctor or a lawyer…..She wanted to be a clothing designer.

"Well, she’s special. We all love her-ah very much. Just like my Joey over-ah here-ah! He’s a fucking singer-ah!"

Smiled Guido

Justin and Josh looked over at me with smirks.

"They are part of the group too Uncle Guido,"

I said

"Yeah, but you……my nephew is good a piece of work,"

He pointed

I rolled my eyes and smiled. Karyn did cook even if she didn’t have to. Justin was happy and we sat down for a good Fatone meal.

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Rome sat in his old bedroom and just stared at the wall. He was so pleased that he was back home and away from the public eye at least for a while. He hadn’t been in his old room in such a long time. His mom left his room the way he left it, the day he went to LA. His thoughts were interrupted by a car passing by bumping it’s bass loudly with sounds of rap music. He looked out of the window and remembered being in Hollywood with all the tragic things that happened.

There was a knock on his door and it was Sliver.

"I’m busy right now could you come back later?"

Asked Rome

"Monique’s here to see you,"

Said Sliver

Rome’s face lit up and said, "Tell her to come in,"

Monique walked in and they hugged Sliver stood there watching. Rome quickly shoved his kid brother out of the room and slammed the door in his face. Sliver knocked on the door and yelled, "I’m telling mom when she gets home,"

"Telling her what?"

"That you kicked me out,"

He ignored Sliver and looked at Mo.

"So, um how’s it going?"

He asked

He touched his face where his bandages were and knew she couldn’t help stare at them.

"I know, I look like the elephant man,"
he said

"No, you don’t look like him. So, does it still hurt?"

"A little,"

They sat on the bed together.

"You look good, Mo,"

He nodded

"So, do you despite the bandages,"

"And my arm,"
he pointed

"Now I know that hurts,"

"It gets better each other. I’m getting therapy to get my strength back in it. The doctors did a great job reconstructing it,"

He still had his cased arm in a sling as he touched it.

"I’m surprised you don’t ask me to sign it,"

She said

"You wanna?"

"No,"

She giggled

He got up and handed her a pen. She smiled and signed her name. She then saw Aailyah’s signature and her long note she had left on it.

"Wow, she wrote you a novel on your case,"

She joked

"It still bothers you?"

"What?"

"That me and Aaliyah are together?"

"No,"

She shied away

He knew it did as she sat there uncomfortable.

"Anyway Lance and I are close now,"

She said

She said that just to prove she could move on. His eyes widen.

"Lance? Lance ‘Country ass’ Bass?"

Asked Rome

"Yeah,"

"He’s a geek,"

"No, he’s not! He’s nice, sweet and tells great….um…..Stories,"

Said Mo

"Stories? What kind of stories?"

Mo hated to even say, but she did.

"Live Stock,"

She announced

"Live Stock?"
He asked all confused

"Uh-huh chickens, cows, ducks, and well horses,"

Rome bit his lip nodding trying not to laugh, ‘Oh, I bet those are killer stories at parties,"

"He’s a complete gentleman,"
she said

"I’m sure with those cow stories he almost has to be a gentlemen…..that’s a weirdo,"

"Lance is not a weirdo……he’s a ……he’s,"

"A tight wearing jeans…weirdo,"
snickered Rome

"That was an accident…. With the jeans,"

"It was an accident? Mo, the guys are still laughing about that,"

"So!"

"So, you should get with someone better,’

"Like who?"

He leaned over and whispered, "Me,"

She sighed and put her hand in his face.

"Or not,"
he said

"You know you on some bullshit, Rome. You having me come all this way so you can play me against Aaliyah,"

She vented

"Playing?"

"Yeah, you playing us,"

Rome laughed it off, "Don’t make me laugh…..hahhahahaha,"

"You think you smart,"

"I never planned playing you against her,"

"That’s why she be looking at me and stuff. You want us to fight over you,"

"I never wanted that,"

He said

"Sure,"

"I’m serious,"

"Rome, you play too much,"

She stood up to walk out.

"Mo, you only saying that cuz I dissed your cowboy boyfriend,"

He said

"He’s……(thought about it)…..Yeap he’s my boyfriend! Me and Lance are a couple!"
She snapped

She was lying of course. He sat there all shocked.

"Wait, you’re going out with him?"

"Yeap! That’s right!"

He laughed again, "You can’t be serious,"

"I’m serious! He’s not like you, Rome! He’s way better!"

"Oh, yeah I forgot he has those tight ass jeans of his! He’s one above me!"

"You’re fucking jealous!"
She pointed

Well, Rome really laughed.

"You’re not going out with him. He’s too……lame…..he’s foul!…..He’s not your type!"

He said

"You never liked him! That’s why are saying this!"

"I’m saying this because it’s true,"

"Well, I slept with him,"

He stopped laughing; "No you didn’t,"

"And he’s way bigger than you,"

He looked down at his crotch.

"Don’t play,"

He said

"I’m not! Lance is like …….he’s……..(Thinking)…twelve inches….and it has to weight ten pounds,"

Rome’s mouth dropped open.

"That’s right! Lance Bass’ dick is a Black girl’s dream come true,"

She said

"I thought we had something! I thought you had better taste,"

"I do! That’s why I am with Lance and not you!"
She said

"Well…..(Snicker)…well,"

"That’s right! I left your ass speechless……Mr. Small dick!"

He gasped, "Take that back!"

"No!"

She opened his bedroom door.

"You’re going out with that cowboy for real? Monique tell you it’s not true!"

"It’s true,"

"No, I don’t believe it,"

"Believe, J-Shit!"

He gasped, "That’s a stage name! It’s like holy! It’s J-shin!"

"J-Shit!"
She snapped

She stormed out of the room and mumbled, "Damn it, now I have to ask Lance to be my boyfriend,"

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(Kelly)

‘Damaged’ by Plumb

Dreaming comes so easily
'Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so how would I know

I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know

I walked the college campus after I got done working at the Library it was a brisk fall night and students lined the streets to go back to their dorms, apartments, or to their night classes. I needed time to think and I needed to be alone. The beginning of this year was so different to what has happened so far. It’s almost October and my thoughts of last year by this time was I was sure I was going to be the happiest I have ever been, when I was in college. My thoughts of This year I was suppose to be Mrs. Joey Fatone, proud and thankful of what I had. Maybe even planning on how many kids him and me were going to have. Everything was suppose to new and sweet. Joey would be promoting his and the guy’s CD and I would be in college waiting for every couple of weekends that Joey would come to see me.

He hadn’t even made an effort to see me now. Yet again, I made sure I wasn’t around too often just in case he showed up at the dorm unexpected. I guess you can say I was avoiding him, but yet again I was hoping to run into him during his mad search of the campus for me. Now, he was gone and on his way to the next city. I would probably never seen him again, unless I turned on MTV or ten years down the line when I go back to Orlando and run into him on the street. By then he would have found a nice girl, someone that wasn’t stupid enough to cheat on someone so kind and loving as he was. Someone that wouldn’t leave the state of Florida and on a last minute say anything, effort and ask her to marry him. The girl would say ‘yes’ and then realized it was ‘no’ along.

SONG:

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

Then there was that other side of me that I didn’t understand why I even ventured there. The side that Josh asked me and even Steve, ‘Are you gay?’ My answer is still ‘No’. I don’t consider myself ‘Gay’, more like confused and hurt from my past that wouldn’t let me choose. I feel like God above stopped me from being happy. He stopped me from marrying the man I loved. Sure I cheated on Joey and I to this day feel horrible about what I did. Maybe this was pay back for walking around pretending Joey was too fucking blind to see what was going on? Maybe I shouldn’t taken our relationship for granted and assumed he would always be there.

I was fine until I found out I was adopted. I don’t blame my adoptions for cheating, lying and having been left at the altar. I am just saying it all started around that time. I was living a lie and to tell you the truth I rather be completely in the dark about who I am, because right now I am not happy with who I have become. I hate me, I hate for thinking I could cheat on someone I loved (starting to cry) and not think that I would get it all taken away from me.

SONG:

Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know

I sat on a bench on the corner, as I became overwhelmed with my pain. I miss Joey and I don’t know what I am doing. I don’t know why I am kissing a girl and don’t know why I just don’t call Joey. He said he still wanted to be together and just wait to get married. Why didn’t I just agree to that? Because I’m selfish. I’m stupid.

People walked by and I hid my tears in my turtle sweater and my brown pull over fleece. I wiped my tears away as they grew farther and farther away. Once again I was left alone even if there were still a lot of students around………..What do I do now? Is it too late? Is it too late for Joey and me?

I stood up and walked back to my dorm. I was supposed to meet Angie and Melissa there. They wanted to do something together. I don’t know why I agreed, as I should just stay in my dorm room and waste away my life.

SONG:

There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but I can't go back

I'm scared and I'm alone………..
I'm ashamed…………and I need for you to know……….

I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know

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Jasmine went out for recess and went straight to the steel fence looking for Tara. She hadn’t seen her for a couple days and hoped she would appear like before. She was no where in sight. Jasmine sighed as one of her friends, Ashley walked over.

"Wanna play, Jasmine?"

Asked Ashley

"No, I just wanna be by myself,"

"You sure?"

"Yeah,"

The little girl walked away and Jasmine remained by herself as she still waited. The city bus stopped at the bus stop and someone got off. Jasmine waited patiently for the bus to pull off in hopes Tara would be there. The bus left and Jasmine’s face lit up as she saw Tara. Tara sat on the bench and was surprised to see Jasmine look at her. Jasmine smiled and slowly waved towards her. Tara looked all around her to see if there was someone else expect her there, but there wasn’t. Jasmine was waving at her. Tara hesitated at first, but soon waved. Jasmine then waved her over. Tara stood up and crossed the street and cautiously met her daughter on the other side of the fence. She kneed down to her and smiled.

"Why do you come?"

Asked Jasmine

"What do you mean, why do I come?"

"Why do you come everything when I play?"

"To see you,"

"You’re not suppose to, that’s what my……ma……..Helen says,"

"It’s ok, Jas you can call Helen, mom. She’s all you know,"

"Why didn’t you want to know me?"

Tara’s heart broke when she asked that.

"I wanted to know you. I was just young,"
she answered

Jasmine didn’t understand that answer.

‘You’re so young Jas, I hope one day to explain it a little more,"

"Why didn’t you come the last two days?"
Asked Jasmine

"I was working long hours. Did you want me to come?"

Jasmine shrugged and backed away a little.

"I won’t come anymore if it makes you feel uncomfortable,"

Said Tara

"I just wanted to know why you didn’t come those days. I thought you got scared and ran away,"

"Oh, I wouldn’t run away,"

Tara tucked on her necklace around her neck and looked at Jasmine. Jasmine walked closer to the fence to get a better look of the necklace.

"Who gave you that?"

Asked Jasmine

"My mom,"

"You wear it all the time?"

"Yah,"

"Why?"

Asked Jasmine

"It makes me feel safe. Do you like it?"

Jasmine bit her lip and nodded.

"Would you like to wear it?"
Asked Tara

Jasmine thought for a moment and then nodded.

"Yes, I would,"
she nodded

Tara smiled, took it off and handled it to her through the fence. Jasmine looked at the locket on it and smiled. It was heart shaped with a small diamond in the middle. Tara held in her tears of joy.

"Look you better go back and play, huh? (Looking at watch) you only have a short while until you have to go back to class,"

Said Tara

"Are you leaving?"

"Do you want me to?"

Jasmine shook her head no. Tara was delighted.

"I’ll be watching you from the bench across the street ok?"
Asked Tara

Jasmine nodded slowly and skipped away. She got to her friends and turned. Tara was crossing the street to go seat on bench. Jasmine looked at the necklace and put it in her pocket for safekeeping.

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CHAPTER 3

6OF10

(Chris)

Mo called Lance……

"Hey, Lance how’s it shaking?"

She asked

She was in deep hesitation because of the lie she told Rome just to make him jealous. She was tired of Rome thinking Mo was living a lonely life because he was with Aaliyah and he thought she couldn’t live without him. Mo had to prove him wrong, even if it was a lie that her and Lance were a couple. She thought Lance was cute and he was nice, but these crazy live stock stories drove her crazy. She was sure she could live pass all of that though.

"Hey, I wasn’t expecting to hear from you,"
said Lance

Lance remembered my advice not to tell Mo the cow stories anymore. It wasn’t a come on for chicks.

"So, how’s things going?"

Asked Mo

Lance wanted to impress Mo so he had been listening to my Busta Ryhmes tape so he could be down for whatever. He thought Busta Rhymes music was the gateway to Hip-Hop.

"Everything is going well……I mean, I’m straight chillin,"

He said

He wanted to sound like he was cool too, if he sounded like he was down forever and from the hood.

"Really?"
Asked Mo

She knew he was trying too hard.

"So, Um how’s things…….hangin in the hood,"

He asked

He turned up the volume on the TV as Yo MTV Raps was on. Another way to impress her, wink-wink.

"The hood’s fine, so I saw you on MTV yesterday,"
she said

"That was wack!"

He said

"What?"

"The Show was WACK!"

He said

He heard the word ‘Wack’ being use by some rapper the night before when he was watching BET. He thought that slang term was cool.

"Well, I thought you guys were great on that show. Lance are you ok?"

Asked Mo

"Hell yes! I’m chillin…..Like Bob Dylan! Yo-yo!"

He said in a high pitch voice

She started to laugh, "Ok, um"

"So, listen Baby girl…….how about we’s hook up….on the DL when I get back to the hood?’

She covered her mouth, as she couldn’t stop laughing with all Lance’s lame hip-hop slangs.

"Um, sure,"
she said

"We could……chill in my hood……at my crib,"

I walked in and saw lance using odd hand motions as he spoke. He winked at me and gave me the thumbs up.

"Lance, you look like you’re throwing a fit. You ok?"

I asked

"Check this out, babygirl! I be out for now!……Cuz my guy is here and he wants to……um,"
said Lance

Lance paused, as he didn’t know how to end his slang sentence. He looked at me in a panic.

"I have no idea what you are talking about. Yet, know what planet you are on,"
I said

I lay on his bed and closed my eyes, "I’m running low on Prozac…..You know what that means?"I sighed

"Anyway, Mo um,"

Said Lance

"Ok, so we can chill when you get back here, ok?"
She giggled

"Aiight, see yah!"
Said Lance

"If Justin can see you now,"
I giggled

Lance hung up with her and grew excited.

"I think I impressed her,"

He giggled

"With you lame skills? Oh, yeah she’s impressed,"
I snickered

Lance pointed to the TV as Dr. Dre’s song ‘I been there….I’ve done that’ was on.

"Chris, I got my language skills from Hip Hop,"

Said Lance

"Pretty scary,’

"It’s the way of the world,"

Lance stood looking at the ceiling in awe as he was having a moment.

"Honesty Lance I don’t think talking……..Jive talk……I assume that’s what you were tying to do……isn’t working,"

"Jive talk? Chris that’s so 70’s……..It’s the 90’s live a little,"

Said lance

"So, you watching the Country Music Awards tonight?"

Lance scrambled for the TV guide. His hip-hop phase didn’t last too long.

"(Gasped in delight) Allen Jackson is up for song of the year, Chris!"
Cheered Lance

I giggled and said, "Club Static is having some Rap Amateur thing tonight…..The guys called me and told me about it. They want to know if we want to go,"

Lance sighed, ‘Then I miss The Judes come back,"

"Well, think about it ok. No, pressure,"

"They have a tribute to Johnny Cash tonight (sigh)…. Damn it I don’t know if I can miss this,"

"Like I said, there is no pressure, but……..But…this could help your…..Gosh I hate to even go there…..But Lance this could help your slang hip hop talking for you, if you go,"

I snickered as teasing and mocking him was the highlight of my Prozac withdrawal. Lance paced back and forth in thought.

"Well, what would Allen Jackson do in this stressful decision?"

I asked

"I’m thinking……..I’m thinking."
He paced

I watched and giggled, "No pressure,"

"The pressure is so great……it’s either stay home watch the greatest awards show ever or get my skillz on,"

Just then there was a knock on the door. I raced to it and opened in delight when Johnny handed me my new supply of Prozac.

"Here they are,"

He smiled

"Thanks, Johnny,"

"What’s on the agenda tonight?"

"Well, Lance is having a country music stress moment…..And me? I’m back on the wagon,"

Johnny gave me a look.

"I mean with the Prozac and all,"

I said

He winked and left. Lance sighed, "I can’t miss Allen Jackson,"

"Ok, fine I have to go cuz special guest star tonight is Busta!"

"You’re so lucky to see your idol in person………Allen is just a fantasy encounter,"

"You sound like you wanna have sex with him,"
I laughed

Lance pointed at me with a serious look; "country Music is not a laughing matter,"

"Ok, calm down cowboy……enjoy your non laughing matter,"

Lance sat on the bed and I went to meet the guys.

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‘Tootsee Roll’ by 69 Boyz

The butterfly? Uh-uh, that's old!

Let me see the Tootsee Roll!

Yeah, 199Quad!69 Boyz backed up by the

Quad City DJ's! One time !Cotton candy,

sweetie go, let me see the Tootsee Roll!

As usual Club Static was jammed pack with Hip Hoppers as Justin, Josh, Joey, Adrea and Sierra walked in. The guys were impressed with the club.

"I told you, Ju this place was so cool,"

Said Adrea

"So, you come here often?"

He asked

"Well, I plan on making this my weekend hang out,"

"Until you go home for good come January,"

He said

"Let’s not talk about that right now, ok?"

He nodded and hugged her from behind. Josh nodded his head to the music as he stood next to Sierra.

"So, you know how to do the Tootsee Roll?"

He smiled

"I think so,"
she giggled

"So, you going to show me? Cuz you know white people can’t dance,"

He teased

She dragged him on the floor to dance. Joey stood by himself, as he knew all his friends had their girls with them and he was single third wheel. He saw several girls looking at him inviting him over to dance. He smiled back and shrugged, "What the hell, matters well dance my life away,"

Joey shoved his booty in between the girls as they laughed.

"Phat-tone is here ladies,"
he announced

Kai was doing the Djing at it was about 1130pm at night. After going to the Poetry Def Jam him, Wade, and their guys went straight to the club. Kai saw Adrea on the floor with Justin. Wade walked over to the booth with two Long Island Iced Teas. He handed Kai one.

"So, she’s here,"

Said Kai

"Who?"

"Who else and she brought his stupid ass,"

Wade looked over the dance floor and saw Justin all over Adrea.

"He can’t even dance. I can run circles around him. She’s too coo for him besides,"

Said Kai

"You sound like you are making up excuses why you should be the one for her,"

"Shit, fuck naw! I ain’t like you,"

Wade gave him a look and pointed, "Don’t start that shit,"

"What I said nothing,"

He chuckled

SONG:

Tootsee Roll! (8x)To the left! (2x) To the right! (2x)

To the front! (2x) To the back! (2x) Slide! (8x) To the

left! (2x) To the right! (2x) To the front! (2x) To the back!

(2x) Dip, baby, dip! (4x)

The crowd did what the song told them to do. Josh did pretty good keeping up with the dance.

"This is like the electric slide but, better,"
he giggled

Justin kissed Adrea over in a corner as Kai had lost sight of them. Wade noticed Kai’s suddenly head jerking all over.

"She and him walked away,"

Said Wade

"Who?"

"Don’t play, Cous,"

Laughed Wade

Kai pointed, "Shut up,"

Wade laughed more and soon Jessica walked in with Bilal.

"Heyyyy, do the dip! Shake your hips!"

She mocked the song.

"So, Wade go show these busters on the floor whose king of the dance craze,"

Said Bilal

Bilal was a very good dancer, but of course no one could do it like Wade. Wade nodded and took Jessica by her hand. Bilal stood there insulted.

"Oh, Boo-boo don’t look that way. It’s just Wade and I dance so well together,"

Said Jessica

Jessica patted Bilal on his cheek and smiled.

"Man if it bothers you, I won’t dance with her,"

Said Wade

"Nah, gon’ I be out there in a minute,’

Said Bilal

Wade and Jessica left to dance. Kai still looking all over for Justin and Adrea.

"I think I am starting to like her,"

Said Bilal

"Who?"

"Jezza,"

Kai looked over in shock, "Really?"

SONG:

I don't know what you've been told It ain't the butterfly, it's the Tootsee Roll

A brand new dance SO,Grab a partner and get on the dance FLO'And work them

hips a lil' bit Then do that dip a lil' bit

I walked in the club nodding my head to the music; I learned that from watching Yo MTV Raps. I had to come in the club looking really cool. I mean coo. That’s the term. Some girls walked by and I winked at them.

"Hey, Ladies how’s it going?"
I asked

They nodded my way and I saw Joey dancing with three girls. Wow, didn’t take him too long to forget Kell, huh? Not! Chances are he was trying to forget her and with enough beers he would. I walked over and Joey was so happy to see me.

"Hey, Chris! Sup!"
Smiled Joey

"Not much! I see this is a happening place,"
I said

One of the girls Joey was dancing with started to dance up on me. She was fucking beautiful too! I couldn’t drink and I didn’t want to, but this girl made me feel drunk. I smiled at her and we started to dance. Little to my knowledge I was being hunted.

Jessica saw me come in and nudged Wade.

"He’s here,"
she squealed

"Who?"

Asked Wade

"Captain Caveman! Who else?"

"I don’t know! That’s why I am fucking asking!"

"Don’t yell at me! Anyway, Chris….the hair weave hunk,"

Wade looked over and snickered, "He’s like on medication,"

She gave him the finger and walked over to Joey and me. Wade shrugged, as it didn’t take too long for him to get another dancing partner, he was known for his dancing remember. He was like fucking Santa Claus every girl wanted to dance with him. They were standing in line.

I was so into the girl I was with I didn’t even notice Jessica had shoved the girls that Joey was dancing with out of the way.

"I was dancing with them, Cous,"

Said Joey

"Their hoes, Cous,"
she said

"I don’t care,"

"You should, rumor has it one of the girls had coochie itch,"

She smiled

Joey rolled his eyes and he danced with Jess. She then tapped me on my shoulder and I froze in my tracks when I saw her. I looked over at the girl I was dancing with and they like knew each other.

"Hey, Heidi,"

Smiled Jessica

Yes, it was Wade’s two second ex girlfriend I was with .I didn’t know that.

"Hey, Jezza,"

Smiled Heidi

"Isn’t He cute,"

I looked over at Joey all bashful.

"He thinks you’re adorable,"
joked Joey

"I’m not,"
I said

Jezza traded partners with Heidi so she could dance with me. She turned and pressed her butt up against me. She was a good dancer and her butt was so……oh my god! I don’t wanna say……(sigh) I just did, didn’t I?

SONG:

Oh yeah, you got it, now whip, baby, no buts about it And you over there, with the long hair Keep rollin' that derriere 'Cause it ain't hard Just a brand new dance for the 199Quad69 in the place to beHey yo, 'Ski! What we came to see? Cotton candy, sweetie, go,Let me see the Tootsee Roll!

"So, you me?"

She asked

"I don’t know you,"

"Oh, yes you do,"

"Well, like I know you through Joey, but I haven’t sat down with you on a one to one,"

"Ohhhhhh, I love one on one,"

She said

She licked her lips at me and I chuckled.

"I didn’t mean it that way,"
I said

"One day you will,"

she winked

She suddenly traded partners with Heidi again. I was surprised but I then realized she did that just to get my attention. I kept looking at her body and the way she moved it. She was like a dream…..A dirty, nasty…naughty dream. And Heidi dancing up against me didn’t help my horniness. She was all over me as all I could think about was Jessica’s fucking beautiful body and how good she must look naked.

================

Justin had Adrea up against the wall away from other people. They kissed hard and passionate. He had his hands all over her body as she invited every moment. She had her arms his shoulders, as she loved the way he grabbed her butt and sucked her neck.

"We got one more chance,"

He uttered

"Not here,"
she said breathlessly

He looked at her breathing heavy and wanting her so bad.

"Where? We can go to the bathroom,"

He said

"Too many people, kid,"

"When you talk (breathing harder – in desperation)…..New York slang……I just ….just….I just get so,"

"What, my Sexy curly headed…weirdo!"
She said breathless

"I get fucking turned on! I gotta have it!"
He squealed

They went back to kissing and carrying on.

"My roommate,’
she uttered

"Don’t mention her……I loose sperm counts ever time you mention her name, Spanish Eyes,"

"No, Ju-ju Beads of my dreams!"
She moaned

"I had a dream…..Last night,"

"Was it disgusting and so naughty,"

She groped him and he closed his eyes in pleasure, "Fucking naughty!"

"Tell, me naughty boy…..,"

"You were naked……..Dancing…….dancing to salsa music"

"Ooooooh, baby! I want you!"
She moaned

They started to kiss and carry on again. Justin then got an idea.

"Ok, wait!"

He said

Adrea kept massaging his crotch.

"Ok, don’t……ahhhhhhhhh, damn it, that feels good,"
he squealed

"Hmmmmmm, yeah, Papi chulo,"

She moaned

"Mammacita, I got an idea,"

"Tell, me……..I have one too,"
she said

"Ok, give me five seconds,"

He said

He pulled away and ran over to Josh and Sierra. She stood there waiting as she suddenly saw Kai walk by with the most evil look. She looked away to avoid eye contact.

Meanwhile…….

Josh and Sierra were dancing close.

"I love you so much. I don’t wanna leave you tomorrow,"

He said

"Let’s not talking about that, ok?"

"Si, it’s going to happen if we like it or not,"

"Well, we still have tonight, let’s just act like tomorrow wont happen,"

She said

They kissed as unknown to them Wade was near by watching. Wade felt jealous as he looked at the girl he was dancing with and kissed her. He only did it cuz he couldn’t handle seeing Sierra kissing Josh. The girl he was kissing was delighted.

"I always liked you Wade,"
she smiled

Wade gave her a fake smile, as he had no feelings for her at all. He just pulled her close to avoid anymore conversation. Justin soon interrupted Sierra and Josh.

"What?"

Asked Josh

"Can I borrow your Dorm for like forty five minutes?"

Asked Justin

"No,"

Said Sierra

"Oh, come on Si! You’re here dancing with Josh,"

"So,"

"So, all we need is a short time,"

"Why don’t you just go back to Adrea’s place?"

Asked Sierra

"Because Courtney’s there and we cant get it on,"

"Ju, you’re not having sex in my bed,"

"I wouldn’t. We were going to do it in Kelly’s,"

Smiled Justin

"Kelly’s there,"

Said Sierra

"Actually, she just walked in,"

Said Josh

They looked over at the entrance of the club and she was standing there with Melissa and Angie. Joey who was dancing near that area saw her walk in. Jessica who was dancing with him, sighed, "Just ignore her,"

Joey mumbled, "I cant,"

======================

‘All I need’ by Method Man

You're all that I need, I'll be there for you

If you keep it real with me, I'll keep it real witchu

Loving your whole schemes, it be in there boo

On top of that you got the good power-U

"Well?"

asked Justin

"No, Ju,"
said Sierra

"don’t be like that,"
he whined

"Justin, the answer is no,"

"But, Kelly’s here and everything,"

"No,"

"And she’s with them,"

said Josh

It was true Kelly had come with her lovers and shame to have no shame in her game. She didn’t know Serra knew she had crossed over the other side. Sierra and Josh werent sure how to ask her or even dicuss it her and now Joey had seen her. He only could see that she was with two chicks but he had no idea what she had been doing with them.

"Damn it, Jo’s over there too,"

said Josh

"so what?"

asked Justin

Well, they couldn’t tell Justin what was going on. He would have a field day with it. Josh excused himself and walked through the crowd towards Joey. Wade noticed Sierra alone, well Justin was there, but he was no threat.

"Come on, Si! Let me have your room,"

begged Justin

"No,"

"Look, I will buy you a drink if you let me have it for forty-five,"

SONG:

Check it outShorty I'm there for you anytime you need me

For real girl, it's me in your world, believe me Nuttin make a

man feel better than a woman Queen with a crown that be down

for whatever There are few things that's forever, my lady

"Justin Randall Timberfucker!"
said Sierra

"Why you gotta go there?"

asked Justin

"because you’re being a little fucker,"

"I am not, I just want the hook up,"

"No,"

"Why?"

he whined

Meanwhile……

Joey pulled away from Jessica and walked towards Kelly. She slipped out of her coat and walked down the steps into the dance floor with the girls. Joey shoved his way towards her as Jessica followed.

"Joey, don’t do it!"
yelled Jessica

"Jessi, leave me alone,"

said Joey

"I wont let you get set up for another heartbreak,"

"Don’t worry about me,"

"I cant help it, you’re my cousin,"

‘Try to help it,"

She stopped following him as she stood there disappointed. Josh walked over to her.

"He’s going to find out sooner or later,’
said Josh

"She’s going to hurt him,"

said Jessica

"There’s nothing going to stop him. He love her and remember he hurt her first,"

said Josh

Joey tapped Kelly on her shoulder as Angie and Melissa gave him alook. Kelly looked surprised to see him. She felt sad when she did see him. He gave her a plain look.

"Hi,"

he said

she looked over at Angie and Melissa felt panicky as he might figure out that they were more than friends. She didn’t want Joey to find out that way.

"Joey!"

she said with her voice cracking.

"How’s it going?"

he asked

Joey bit his lip as this was a very uncomfortable conversation.

"Fine, and you?"

she asked

He placed his hands in his pockets and sighed, "Fine, yeah doing great,"

"Good,"

she uttered

"yeah, good,"

There was a long pause as Angie stood all defensive towards Joey. Joey sensed something wasn’t right.

"so, Kelly can I buy you a drink?"

asked Joey

Angie gave Joey the evil eye and crossed her arms. Kelly didn’t know what to say. Joey gave Angie the look back.

SONG:

We can make war or make babies Back when I was nuttin

You made a brother feel like he was something That's why

I'm with you to this day boo no frontin Even when the skies

were gray You would rub me on my back and say "Baby it'll

be okay" Now that's real to a brother like me baby Never ever

give my pussy away and keep it tight aight

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7of10

Damaged by Plumb

Dreaming comes so easily
'Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairy tale

I'm damaged, so how would I know

I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know

"So, Kelly can I buy you a drink?"

Asked Joey

Angie gave Joey the evil eye and crossed her arms. Kelly didn’t know what to say. Joey gave Angie the look back.

"Angie and Melissa this is Joey,"

Said Kelly

Angie had a smirk on her face and nodded.

"Joseph Fatone, of course,"

Said Angie

"And Angela Weiss,"

Said Joey

"So you know each other?"

Asked Kelly

‘Yeah, I know Steve,"

Said Angie

Kelly remembered the night of the possible foursome that she had bowed out of. She blushed and said, "Oh, yeah,"

Joey looked at Kelly surprised.

"You know she knows Steve?"

Asked Joey

"Well, she told me,"

Lied Kelly

"Oh,"

They stood there for a moment looking at each speechless.

"So, it was nice seeing you Jo,"
saidAngie

"Yea, whatever,"

said Joey

"I’m Melissa,"

Joey nodded at Melissa, but was still focused on Kelly.

"So, I assume you don’t need a drink?"

Asked Joey

Kelly was going to answer, but Angie did it for her.

"Sure, sounds good Jo. Thanks, we would love a drink,"

Said Angie

"I was asking Kelly,"
said Joey

Angie gave him a look and said, "Come Mel,"

They walked away leaving Kelly there with Joey. Joey looked Kelly up and down as he missed each part of her. She realized he was checking out her features and blushed. She missed him too as it seem like everyone in the room disappeared expect them. They made eye contact as she placed her hands in her back pockets. He stepped closer to her.

‘So, you never answered my question,"
he said

SONG:

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

He still had that plain look on his face, as he couldn’t believe he had finally came face to face with her.

"Joey, I,"

She started

He suddenly placed his finger over her lips and said, "Don’t speak,"

He removed his finger and they continued to stare at each other. Josh and Jessica watched the stare off as Kelly surveyed Joey’s body from head to toe. He reached out for her and she backed away.

"No,"

She said

SONG:

Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know

Joey stepped forward, "Shhh," he shushed with his finger over his lip. She then walked away leaving him there. Josh and Jessica walked over to him.

"You ok?"

Asked Josh

"Yeah, fine. Excuse me,"

He said

He disappeared into the crowd. Chris walked over to Jessica and Josh.

"Is he ok?"

Asked Chris

"I won’t let him get back with her. She’s no good,"

Said Jessica

"He loves her, Jess,"

Said Josh

"Over my dead body,"

Josh and Chris looked over at Jessica as she stared at Kelly who had made it over to Melissa and Angie at the bar area.

SONG:

There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but I can't go back

****************

Adrea waited patiently over on the side of the dance floor for Justin. Malakai slowly walked over to her and she wasn’t happy to him.

"So, standing waiting to get asked to dance?"

Teased Kai

"Don’t you suppose to be Djing?"

"Well, bilal is watching the booth so I could go get another drink,"

"Oh,"

She looked down as she wished he would just go away.

"You going to avoid me with he’s gone?"

He asked

"I don’t know what you are talking about,"

"You don’t?"

"Nope,"

"Well, I know what is going to happen,"

"Oh really, tell me Kai,"

"Ooooh, attitude to go with your selfishness,"

"I’m not getting an attitude and I’m not selfish,"

She snapped

He snickered at her anger and nodded, "Ok,ok,"

He then walked back to the booth.

"Fucker,"
she mumbled

Justin came running over all smiling.

"What?"

Asked Adrea

He dangled a set of keys in front of her.

"Whose are those, Curly?"

She smiled

"Sierra’s, but we will be back,"

He said

"But, I don’t know,"

He then pulled her by he hand and left the club as Kai watched them from the DJ Booth.

====================

I walked over to Josh, Chris and Jessica. I had seen the whole thing and thought I should see if Kell was ok.

"Maybe I should go see if she’s ok,"

I said

"I should kick that bitch’s ass,"

Said Jessica

Chris saw how angry she was and walked away. He got a vibe she had the Fatone evil blood in her and he didn’t want to be a part of it.

"Well, I will see yah…….um yeah,"

Said Chris

I was ready to go see if Kelly was ok, when Josh stopped me.

"I should go,"
I urged

"No, don’t get involved,"
said Josh

"I should have kicked her ass when I had a chance,"

Said Jessica

"But, she’s my friend and I know seeing Joey must have blew her away,"

I said

"Well, I wish it would have blown her all the way back to Orlando by the sit of her fucking pants,"

Grumbled Jessica

"Si, let them handle this,"

Said Josh

‘Let me fucking handle this,"

Snapped Jessica

Josh and I looked over at her. She stormed away to nag at Wade about it.

"I should really talk to Kell,"
I said

Josh put her arms around me and whispered in my ear, "Don’t get into their business, Beautiful,"

I looked over by Kell and she was talking to Angie and Melissa as she looked cautiously around for another Joey sighting. Just then the lights in the club went out and the lights on the performing stage went on. It was time for rapping amateur night and well, Busta Rhymes did the Intro. We could hear an exciting fan in a distant and had a strange feeling who it was. We looked over and Chris cheered like a mad man.

"Go Busta! He’s the man! I love yah! I just love yah, man! And it’s not in a gay way,"

Cheered Chris

Josh kissed my neck and comforted my feelings of concern.

"Let, Joey and Kelly work this out for themselves,"

He urged

"They’re our friend, Josh,"

"And we are going to let them work this out on their own because we are their friends,"

I gave in and nodded, as he was right. We then watched the show. Bilal who discovered his recent feelings for Jessica, had to tell her. He walked over to her.

"Jess,"

He said

She was too busy snapping about Kelly and Joey to Wade.

"That fucking ass bitch! She’s a fucking user! That fucking stringy haired bitch! I hate her! I just hate her ass!"
She vented

"Man, chill you’re ruining my buzz,"

Said Wade who was half drunk

"Jess?"

Asked Bilal

"I mean you saw her Bilal!"
Snapped Jessica

"No, actually I didn’t but, I wanted to talk to you about something,"

"So, she’s all fucking gay and shit ………has the nerve to confuse my little cousin…….Little Joey Fatone! My fucking Joey! That fucking Kelly bitch!"

Vented Jessica

"Shut up! I want to enjoy of drunkenness,"

Said wade

"You know, Wade I listen your sorry ass problems! The minute I tell you mine…….none of what I say matters! Gosh, I wish my best friend was a girl!………Angie was my best friend that was a girl,but she goes Lesbo on me and now I have to settle for your punk ass!"

Wade backed up in, insult, "Well fuck you!"

‘No, Wade fuck you,"

‘No, fuck you!"

Snapped Wade

"Excuse me, but I can I talk to you Jezza?"
Asked Bilal

"Just a second, Bilal!……..Wade, you’re wannabe that…..Can’t dance!"

Snapped Jessica

Wade gasped, "That was harsh, Yo!"

Jessica stuck her tongue out and stormed away with Bilal following.

" I can dance, you bitch!"

Snapped Wade

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Justin and Adrea lay on Kelly’s bed kissing, he suddenly stopped and looked around.

"What?"

She asked

"Did you hear that?"

She shoved him off of her and he landed on the floor. He sighed and got up as she started to get dress.

"Why did you do that for?"

He snapped

"You heard a noise, means someone is coming,"

She said zipping her pants up

"No, Adrea I mean listen……..Really listen,"

Adrea stopped as they listened and heard nothing. She soon made a discussion about her boyfriend’s way of thinking…………She pointed at Justin, "You are losing it because I don’t heard anything,"

"That’s the point, my little Cuban sandwich,"

She gave him a look, "Don’t let Joey hear you mentioning sandwiches……..He will eat me alive,"

"I mean, we are alone finally, no interruptions,"
he smiled

She sighed and put her hands on her hips.

"What?"
He asked confused

"There we were getting naked and you stopped me to listen to silence?"

"I thought we could have a moment,"

"Justin, do you realize we only have like an hour, if we are lucky to get it on?"

"I prefer the term ……….. Making love,"
he shrugged

She took a pillow off the bed and hit him with it. He almost fell back over.

"Can you not do that, gees,"

He said fixing his curly hair.

"Anyway, let’s get this over and done with………time is a wasting,"

She said

She grabbed him and forced him on the bed.

"Kind of rough don’t you think?"
He asked

"Shut up, and let’s fuck,"

She ordered

"Damn,"

"Ahora!"

She snapped in Spanish

"Right now?"

"Si!"

She snapped in Spanish

"Ok,"

He giggled

They started to kiss as she lay on top of him and they started to grind. He then stopped her. She sighed

‘What!"

She snapped

"I don’t know if I like what’s going on here,"

He sighed

"What!"

"I mean I feel so forced! I mean it’s much easier to working with Nsync……..I mean I can sing on que…….but having sex……well, it takes time……can you slow down and not be so rough,"

She lightly slapped him, "Shut up!"

He started to pout, "You’re scaring me! I can’t perform under pressure!"

She got off of him and nodded, "You’re right. It’s not right for me to force you,"

"Let’s just take it slow………we still have (Looking at watch) forty five minutes,"
he assured

She suddenly shoved him back down, "We still have foreplay and that takes thirty minutes……..And well, we only have fifteen minutes to get jiggy,"

"So, you’re going to force me?"
He whined

She gave him an evil smile and nodded. He sighed and said, "Fine, but I can’t make any promises that I can do a good job,"

They started to kiss and soon made love……..Very quickly……

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Joey walked over to Kelly and her friends again. Kelly turned to him.

"Joey, I can’t talk to you right now,"

She said

He didn’t listen as he pulled her by her hand to the side. He backed her up against the wall, face to face. They were so close they could feel each other’s breath.

"I love you. I made a mistake! I will admit it!"

He said

She tried to walk away but he blocked her.

"Tell me right now, Kell!"

He snapped

"What do you wanna me to say, huh?"
She snapped

"If you don’t love me! If you say you don’t, I will leave you alone forever,"

She couldn’t say it. She shook her head no and looked down at his belt buckle to avoid eye contact. He moved her chin up to his eye view with his finger.

"Look at me please and tell me with your lips,"
he said

She sighed as her eyes got all glassy. She looked over at Melissa and Angie as they watched from a distance of what she will do next. Joey moved his face to block her view of the girls.

"Tell me!"

He ordered

"Yes! Ok! I love you! I love you crazy!"

She uttered

He backed up as she shook in emotion.

"Can you walk away from what we had?"
He asked

"You walked away from us!"

"I said I was sorry! What else do you want me to say, Kell! Damn you! I fucking love you!"

He bit his lip in anger as he stooped around a little. She then walked over to him as he looked into her eyes. She cupped his face as a single tear fell from her eyes.

"I love you………..I always have!……..But, I don’t want you to decided again you don’t want me,"

She said

He hugged her tightly and said, "I made a mistake. I shouldn’t have done what I did. Please forgive me,"

She gasped in her tears and said, "I don’t know,"

He cupped her face this time and said, "We can take it slow,"

Suddenly Jessica broke up their soap opera make up story. She shoved Joey away and pointed in Kelly’s face in anger.

"I know what you are fucking doing, you fucking ass bitch!"

Snapped Jessica

Joey shoved Jessica away as Bilal held her back.

"What the hell do you think you are doing!"

Snapped Joey

"Don’t believe her, Jo!"

Snapped Jessica

Joey stood in front of Kelly to protect her from Jessica. Jessica tried to hit Kelly when Joey shoved her away again.

"Cut it out, Jess!"

Snapped Joey

"Jess chill,"

Ordered Bilal

"Fuck her! Fuck that bitch!"

Snapped Jessica

"What did I do to you!"

Said Kelly

"Look what you are doing to Joey! Joey, don’t believe her!"

Urged Jessica

"Jess, you’re drunk! You’re crazy drunk!"

Snapped Joey

"No, I’m not!"

Gasped Jessica

"Yes, you are! I demand you apologize to Kelly!"

"She’s fucking gay! She’s fucking my friend!"

Kelly’s eyes widen as Angie and Melissa walked over overhearing Jessica’s rampage.

"What’s going on?"

Asked Angie

Joey stood there dumbfounded as Kelly shied away.

"Tell him, Ang! Tell him!"

Ordered Jessica

Angie looked at Kelly and then at Joey. Jessica pulled at Angie’s shirt.

"Tell him!"

Screamed Jessica

"You’re drunk and you need to calm down,"

Said Angie

Jessica stood there in shock.

"Yeah, Jess chill out,"

Said Melissa

"I can’t believe this!"

Said Jessica

Joey pointed at her, "Stay the fuck out my business, cous!"

"She’s fucking lying! They are fucking covering for her! Angie, tell him the truth!"

Joey pulled Kelly by her hand and shoved Jessica out of the way. Jessica screamed, "Joey! She’s fucking lyin’!"

When Joey didn’t listen she turned to Angie

"How could you make me look like a fool!"
Snapped Jessica

Angie didn’t answer as her and Melissa walked away.

"You fucked her! You made me look like an idiot!"
Snapped Jessica

Angie came back over pissed.

"Stay out of it!"

Snapped Angie

"Ang, you know what happened,"

"I know, but it’s not your problem!"

"He’s my fucking Joey! He’s my fucking problem!"

Just then Wade came over to see what all the screaming was about. Angie looked over at him.

"She’s drunk Wade. Take her home,"

Said Angie

Wade put his arm around her but she shoved him away. She got in Angie’s face.

"Step off, Jess,"

Warned Angie

Wade and Bilal separated them.

"Chill, Yo,"

Snapped Wade

"Why did you do that!"

Grumbled Jessica

"Because…….one day she will slip up!"

Snapped Angie

Jessica gave her a confused look.

"Kelly doesn’t know what she wants………….that’s going to fuck her over in the long run. As for you, don’t ever, ever come in my face and accuse me of shit!"
Snapped Angie

Angie stormed off with Melissa following. Jessica walked away the other direction with Wade and Bilal

=======================

Josh held me close to him as we danced. He then started to get a headache. He looked at me and sighed, "can we go?"

"Well, um,"

Justin and Adrea hadnt came back with my keys. I shook my head no.

"Why?"

He asked

"Justin took my keys,"
I said

He sighed, "You let him take your keys?"

"Yeah,"

"So, what should we do?"

"We have to wait for them to get back here,"

Josh gave me a disappointing look, but I couldn’t react in time, cuz Jessica stormed over to us with revenge. I backed up as she pointed her finger all in my face like she was going to kick my ass. Bilal tried to stop her as Wade, who didn’t realize he was standing next to Josh, gave him a look. Josh gave the look back.

"What?"
I asked

"Tell your fucking ass friend to watch her back!"
Snapped Jessica

"Jezza chill!"

Pleaded Bilal

"What friend? What did I do?"
I asked

I was scared because she was so pissed and thought what ever that was bothering her she was going to take it out on me. I knew she could kick my ass, she was a Fatone! Fatones didn’t take shit and were very temperamental!

"Fucking ass gay……. Kelly bitch!"

She screamed in my face

"Kelly? What does this have to do with me!"

Jessica stood there in silence as her eyes grew large with anger as she breathed heavily.

"Jess, this has nothing to do with me! I didn’t tell Kelly to fuck Angie and whatever else,"

I explained

She continued to give me the Famous Fatone point and warned, "Tell her to stay away from me! She doesn’t want to fuck with me! I will make that bitch’s life a living hell! I will cut her up and toss her in the Hudson River!"

She then walked off with Bilal and Wade following. Wade did his famous ‘Pssh’ at Josh. Josh gave Wade an evil look as he stared him down as he walked out of the club. Josh turned to me as I was unsure why I was the target all of sudden.

"You ok?"

Asked Josh

"I don’t know, I mean why is she mad at me?"

"I don’t know, I assume with the friendship line,"

"I didn’t do anything,"

I said

"I know,"
he nodded

I was speechless, as I wanted Justin and Adrea to so come back so we could leave. We looked over and Joey and Kelly were dancing close together.

"I hope she doesn’t hurt him,"
I uttered

"Remember, stay out of it,"

"How can I? I tried and now I am in the middle of it,"

"Jess, was just mad and you were in the wrong time at the wrong moment,"

"I don’t know. I think she wont talk to me now just because of what Kelly is doing,"

I said

We continued to watch as Joey and Kelly danced intimately with each other. Josh rubbed his forehead and said, " have a real bad headache,"

I looked over and said, "Well, as soon as Ju and Adrea come back we can go,"

He hugged me, as I still didn’t know why I was a target in this.

==============================

Lance lay on his bed staring at the ceiling of his hotel room. The Award show was over and he couldn’t sleep. He was now regretting not going to the club after all. He was bored and no matter what he did he couldn’t get Tara out of his head. He was looking forward to seeing Mo but kept seeing Tara’s face in the processes. He was sure now he would never get over her. He looked at his phone book and hesitated but called information. He still has California information number. He had called all over LA looking for her, but couldn’t find her. He decided to try again.

"Tara Smith! That’s right,"

Said Lance talking to the operator.

He sighed in disappointment as he had called each fifty Tara Smiths in the Los Angeles area and he came up empty handed.

"Well, thanks anyway,"

He said

He hung up and laid there thinking and wondering what she must be doing. He turned on his remembrance cassette tape of her and listened deeply, singing along. He held his hand out as the first lyric of the song played.

‘Sara’

By Jefferson Starship

"Go now, don't look back, we've drawn the line

Move on, it's no good to go back in time I'll never

Find another girl like you…………. for happy endings

it takes two We're fire and ice, the dream won't come true,"

Sang Lance

Chorus:

Sara, Sara, storms are brewin' in your eyes

Sara, Sara, no time is a good time for goodbyes

Lance nodded his head to the song sadly, as the word ‘Sara’ was what remembered him of ‘Tara’. He took a deep breath and sang the next verse.

"Danger in the game when the stakes are high………. branded,

My heart was branded while my senses stood by I'll never find

Another girl like you, for happy endings it takes two We're fire and ice,

the dream won't come true,"

He took another deep breath…….

" Tara……… Tara, storms are brewin' in your eyes

Tara, Ta - ra………… no time is a good time, oh Tara,"

He sat up and He decided to write down how he felt for her. He wasn’t sure if he would ever give her this letter, but thought he would feel better if he wrote his feelings down on paper…

Dear Tara,

What are you doing? How's your life? Are you having fun? I hope so……… Do you still think about me...I think about you all the time. I thought I could forget about you, but everytime I wake up and go to bed, I see your pretty face. I walk down the street and see you walking pass me………at least it looks like you, it’s not though. I see you in store windows, magazine stands, buying a newspaper, but it’s only resembles you.

I feel like such a fool sometimes because my heart beats quickly, hurting my chest like it’s ready to jump out in excitement, that’s when I know it’s not you I see. You must have moved on now? I wish I could, I wish I knew how. Chris told me it takes time, but how long? Six weeks, six months, or six years? It’s like a sad long song that keeps playing over and over again……..

He listens to the song ‘Sara’ again continuing to play……

SONG:

Sara, Sara, storms are brewin' in your eyes

Sara, Sara, no time is a good time for goodbyes

Continue to write letter:

After all this time my heart decided on something I had been avoiding ever since I walked away from you………….that I love you. I know that I still love you and I don't know how to stop that because I know I need to……I mean I cant forget what you did. You hurt me so bad. I don’t know why you did it to me. Why, Tara? That’s all I ever wanted to know.

He listened to the part of the song that broke his heart in two everytime he wrote it.

SONG:

('Cos Sara) Loved me like no one has ever loved

me before (And Sara) Hurt me, no one could ever

hurt me more (And Sara) Sara, nobody loved me

anymore

Lance goes back to writing:

I don’t know why I am even writing this down, it’s not like I will ever give it to you. I am too chicken like the ones on my old farm. Even the cows had more guts then me. I feel like I failed at our relationship. Everytime I blame myself, I realized it was you that did this to us.

SONG:

(Solo) I'll never find another girl like you

We're fire and ice; the dream won't come true

Sara, Sara, no time is a good time, oh Sara, Sara,

storms are brewin' in your eyes Sara, Sara, no time

is a good time, no Ooh Sara, why did it, why did it,

Why did it all fall apart?

He placed the letter by his head as he lay on the bed beside it. He listened to the song as it faded out as his last thoughts before he closed his eyes were of her……….Tara…….

"Tara,"

He yawned.

=========================

Joey and Kelly walked over to us as we saw his pearly white grin a mile away. I stood there still trying to come to grips of Jessica screaming match.

"So, hell of a rap contest huh?"

Asked Joey

The Rap Amateur night was still going on, but who could watch it when there was so much drama going on between friends. They saw me and Josh not happy. Josh’s vision was shot with the headache. He kept rubbing his temples trying to relief the pain pressure.

"So, what’s going on?"

Asked Joey concerned

Kelly who hadn’t even bother to look at my scold look kept looking over at Angie and Melissa.

"I have a migraine again,"

Said Josh

"Did you take your meds?"

Asked Joey

"Yeah,"

"Hmmmmmm., maybe you should go back to the dorm,"

Josh nodded as I continued to give weary Kelly looks. Joey waved his hand in front of my face and I looked over at him.

"What’s wrong, Si?"

He asked

I chuckled at that dumbass question; he knew exactly what was going on.

"Ok, so what’s so funny?"

He asked

"Nothing,"
I said

Kelly finally looked over but at Joey. She was holding his hand and pulled away.

"I’m going to talk to my friends at the bar, ok?"

She asked

He nodded and she gave him a kiss that made me even angrier with her. I wanted to know if this was a game she was playing like Jessica said. She walked away as I ran after her. I stopped her and I yanked her by her arm.

‘What?"

Asked Kelly

"What are you doing?"
I scolded

"Um, going to see my friends,"

"Your gay friends? The girls you are fucking"

She looked surprised that I knew. I crossed my arms in front as I waited for her answer. She looked over at Joey and then back at me all-nervous.

"Look, don’t tell him ok?"

"No! I will not play along with your game. I have Jessica mad at me and everything. If you wanna play gay woman to Joey then fine! Don’t bring me into it. I have enough problems trying to pass my classes then to be pulled into your soap opera,"
I snapped

She backed up because I was snapping, moving my head slightly side to side, and waving my finger all in her face with my other hand on my hip. I had to get ghetto on her and I sure didn’t want to, but the girl pissed me off.

"Sierra, this is really complicated ok,"
Said Kelly

"Well, duh! Well, fucking ass duh! Joey is a nice guy and he wants to get back with you. Yes it’s true, he’s into the lesbo thing and would be happy to watch, but he wants you to leave with him at the end of the night,"

"Did, Josh tell you about my encounter,"

"And Jessica,"

Kelly stood there for a moment and nodded.

"I really don’t like her,"

"Well, Kelly she doesn’t like you neither. And somehow I got snapped on because of you,"

I said

"Well, what did she say?"

"What the hell do you think she said,"
I snapped

"Well, don’t listen to her ok,"
said Kelly

"A little too late for that shit, don’t you think? Kelly, who is it? It is going to be Angie and Melissa or Joey? You are playing with fire here,"

"Joey and I are taking it slow,"

"So, he has no idea that you are gay, yet,"

"I’m not gay,"

She grumbled

"What do you call kissing bitches then?"
I snapped

She put her hand in my face and I shoved it away.

"You’re right stay out of it,"
said Kelly

My bottom lip trembled with anger as She walked away. I sighed in anger, that fucking bitch! Just then Adrea walked over and tapped me on my shoulder.

"Boricua, here’s your……keys……what’s wrong?"

Asked Adrea

I gave Adrea a look as she handed my keys back.

"So, we weren’t that long,"
said Adrea

"No, you missed like everything,"

"Gosh, we weren’t gone that long, I tried to hurry Justin,"
said Adrea

"Kelly’s playing games with Joey’s heart,"
I said

"So, she’s doing the Backstreet Boy song on him, huh?"

"I’m serious, damn it now I sound like Lance,""
I snapped

"What happened,"
she asked

I pointed over to Kelly who was by Angie and Melissa.

"I thought that she was with Joey, like you just said,"

She asked

"She having her cake and eating it too……plus some cookies, milk, and some coffee on the side,"
I said

"And what does Joey think of this?"
She asked

"I don’t know! I assume he’s playing the sweet dumbass he has always been playing,"

"So, he doesn’t know?"

"Of course not,"

We looked over at the guys. Chris had wondered over to Justin, Joey, and Josh to hear the latest gossip.

"So, you’re back together with Kelly?"

Asked Justin

Chris drank his shot of Whiskey hard as this was really an interesting night of events. He needed a hard drink to handle everything. Josh quickly snatched his shot away.

"Chris, you’re a recovering alcoholic!"
Snapped Josh

"Look, after tonight, Joey will be one too,"

Said Chris

"What does that mean?"
Asked Joey

"Oh, nothing,"

Giggled Chris

Chris waved his hand a little, as he wasn’t going to spill the beans.

"Joey, you and Kelly?"

Asked Justin

"Yeap,"

Giggled Chris

"No more drinks, Giggles,"
pointed Joey

Chris giggled more, as Josh held his head.

"What’s wrong, J?"

Asked Justin

"Headache and we have been waiting for your punk ass to come back so I can go back and lay down,"

Said Josh

"Sorry, but when you have to get it on, you have to get it on,"

Said Justin

"So, Joey you going to be pissed at Jessica, forever?"

Asked Chris

"Yeah,"

He snapped

"Ok, calm down,"

Said Chris

"She had no fucking right telling all these lies that Kelly’s gay. She’s not gay, Jessica just doesn’t like Kelly for no apparent reason,"

Said Joey

Josh looked away as he knew Kelly was gay for real, well at least BI-sexual.

"Man, I just wanna get the fuck out of here,"
said Josh

"Wait, Kelly’s gay?"

Asked Justin

"No goof ball she’s not! I’m tired of hearing that lie too,"

Snapped Joey

"Who’s the goof ball,"

Mumbled Josh

Joey looked over at Josh like he was trying to say he was the dumbass instead of Justin.

"What?"

Asked Joey

"Woo! Where’s Sierra? My head, man, my head!"

Said Josh

Josh ran off to find me and to get away from Joey.

"So, Kelly’s gay?"
Asked Justin

‘No!"

Snapped Joey

"Well, excuse me!"

Snapped Justin

"I need another shot,"

Said Chris

Chris wondered over to the bar.

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9of10

"That fucking bitch!"

Screamed Jessica

Jessica paced back and forth in front of the club as Wade and Bilal prevented her to go back in to kick Kelly’s ass.

"Let me in!"
She demanded

"No, you cant,’

Said Bilal

‘Bilal, I really wanna fuck you tonight, but you keep pissing me off and you will be sleeping in your own bed tonight!"

She snapped

"Chill, Yo!"

Said Wade

"Stay the fuck away from me, Wade!"
She warned

He tried to comfort her but she came out swinging. Wade ran away as she chased him in the alley behind the club.

"I told your ass to stay the fuck away from me! Now, I have to kill yah, Wade!"

She shouted

Bilal ran after them. Wade laughed, as he didn’t take Jessica’s threats too serious as he hid behind the Dumpster. Bilal held Jessica back as she was seriously thinking about hurting Wade.

"Chill, Yo!"
He laughed

"No, Wade I am going to kill you!"
She shouted

"Aiight Wade, stop teasing her!"
Said Bilal

"Fuck Jessica!"
Laughed Wade

Jessica got loose and chased him around the Dumpster. Bilal sighed, "Jezza, stop taking your anger out on Wade,"

"No, he’s going to fucking die!"

Snapped Jessica

"Cool,"

Snickered Wade

Jessica finally caught up to Wade and he grabbed her hands as she tried to slap him. She tried to pull away but he wouldn’t let go.

"Let go of me, you fucker!"

She snapped

"Hahahha! Jess, you’re too funny,"

Snickered Wade

"I’m not trying to be,"

"Well, you are,"

Jessica pulled away and paced a little again. Wade and Bilal watched her.

"How can I kill her and not get caught,"
she thought out loud

"You can’t kill her,"

Said Bilal

"No, now if my cousin Ronny could kill that one guy……..I’m sure I can get away killing the blonde bitch,"

"Jezza, let your cousin handle this,"

Said Wade

"Wade! Wade Fuckin’ Robson! Stay the fuck out of my business!"

She ordered

Wade laughed again. He walked away, "Man, fuck it! Jezza has lost her mind!"

"She’s hurting my fucking Joey!"

She snapped

"Fucking Joey is an adult now! He’s big enough to fight his own battles,"
yelled Wade

"Man, fuck you,"

She grumbled

"Jezza, you need to calm down ok?"
Said Bilal

"Bilal, he’s my cous ok? I need you to understand that,"
she pleaded

"And you need to listen to reason too,"

"And what’s that?"

"Let the boy handle it himself. He didn’t believe you and he’s not going to. He loves her that much, that’s he doesn’t believe anything anyone says. He isn’t going to believe anyone until he sees it for himself,"

"Then, I will have Ang kiss her in front of him,"

Beamed Jessica

"Stop it, leave it alone. She will fall on her face by herself, and if Joey finds out you asked Ang to kiss Kelly….well, then it’s your fault again,"

"How is this my fault anyway, its the Kelly Bitch’s fault!"

"It’s all on you, kid because you got involved,"

"Well, I’m sorry, Bilal he’s my cousin……..He’s my fucking ass Joey….I have to be involved,"

"Ok, then be prepared to be blamed for all the shit that will come to you,"

Warned Bilal

Jessica sighed as a million thoughts raced through her head and not to mention she was drunk out of her mind.

"Take me home,"

She sighed

He nodded and put his arm around her. Wade walked back over to the club and saw Sierra and I leaving hand in hand. He gave us a look and stormed back inside the club.

"I’m surprised he didn’t ‘Pssh’ us,"
I joked

Sierra smiled as we got into a cab and left.

=========================

Later that night……….ok maybe morning……331am

Joey walked into the apartment and right into Jessica who had made it home before him from the club. They exchanged looks and didn’t say a word to each other. Bilal came out of the bedroom and smiled at Joey.

"What’s up, Jo?"

Asked Bilal

"Just picking up my stuff, because I think it’s best I stay at the hotel tonight,"

Said Joey

"Good call,"

Grumbled Jessica

"Jess, I’m not going to fight with you,"

Said Joey

"Is the little bitch waiting in a cab down stairs?"

She asked

He shook her head, as he wasn’t going to fight with her. He walked over and saw Steve lying on the couch pissy drunk, smiling his way.

"Fucking ass Joey!"

Squealed Steve

"Hey, bro! Look, I’m leaving so, I will see you in Florida in a week,"

Said Joey

"My fucking ass Joey…..Who I swear-ah left at 7pm tonight ……..Yeap I must be really drunk cuz I swear-ah you’re here-ah in front of me right now,"

"Steve, I am here…….my flight was cancelled,"

"Yeap, I’m fucking ass drunk because my fucking ass baby brother-ah is staring at me. So how’s life my pretend vision of my brother-ah?"

Smiled Steve

Joey snickered but, quickly stopped when he saw Jessica holding the door open for him with a cold look. Bilal walked over to talk some sense into her.

"Hell, naw! He can fucking leave! If he wants to believe that gay ass bitch over me, then fine!"

She snapped

Joey grabbed his suitcase and stormed out. He turned to look back one more time at Jessica, but she slammed the door in his face. He sighed and walked to the cab. As promised Kelly was waiting in the cab for him. She smiled as the cab driver and him loaded his suitcase in.

Meanwhile, Jessica grabbed a beer from the fridge and sat with her drunken ass cousin, Steve.

"Start………spreading………the neeeeeeeeeeww……….i’m fucking……….leaving tonight,"
sang Steve

"It’s I’m leaving today,"

Sang Jessica

"That’s fucking Frank Sintara for-ah yah…….always changing the songs,"

Said Steve

"Stevie, why is your brother so stupid?"

"Jess,"

Said Bilal

She looked over at him and he motioned her into the bedroom. She looked back at Steve as he had tucked himself in with his trusty blanket.

"So, why is he stupid?"

She asked

"Because, Jess,"

Said Steve

"Because why?"

"Because, he’s fucking ass Joey,"
giggled Steve

Jessica put her beer down and kissed Steve on his forehead good night.

"Go to sleep Steve,’
she smiled

"Ok-dokie,"
squealed Steve

She rustled up his hair a little and walked in the bedroom with Bilal.

Meanwhile, Joey and Kelly kissed passionately in the cab all the way back to the hotel. She had decided to stay over at the hotel……………..

We walked into the dorm and found Kelly’s bed covers all messed up. Justin and Adrea failed to fix them after their quickie. Sierra sighed and sat on her bed. I lay next to her as my migraine had completely crippled me.

"Why did it have to be my fault,"
she pouted

"It’s not your fault Si,"

I said

"Jessica blamed me,"

"She blames you for being Kelly’s friend,"

"Why cant Joey just see what is going on?"

"Because he’s in love and I hate to say it, but if this was you and me……..I wouldn’t believe it neither,"

She looked over at me as I lay there with my eyes covered with her pillow.

"So, you going to take something for your migraine?"

She asked

"No, I cant,"

"Why?"

"Because I drunk tonight and well, I cant take my meds and drink,"

She leaned over and massaged my forehead. I smiled as I lay with my eyes closed.

"Feel better?"

She asked

"Yeah,"
I said

Sierra always made everything better………

=============================

Lance was wakened by Chris all excited…..

"What!"
Said Lance

"You fucking missed it!"

‘I know, Busta was there. Wait (sniff – sniff) is that booze on your breath?"

Chris back away with his hand over his mouth, "No, mom,"

"Is it? It smelled like a Brandy old Fashion,"

Said Lance

"Whisk - ey,"

Sang Chris

Lance sat up in shook, "Chris, you’re a recovering alcoholic!"

"It was just a little Brandy and a shot of whiskey,"

"Drug test tomorrow!"
Scolded Lance

Chris sketched in horror and fell to the floor. Lance looked over at Chris

"Chris? You ok?"
Asked Lance

"Hide me! Hide me! Before he gets me!"
He gasped

"Um, so um……..The Prozac and booze combo has done a number on your sanity?"

"No, you cowboy on crack! I mean from Johnny!"

Chris suddenly grabbed Lance in agony.

"Save me from the anti-Christ! Don’t let him give me a drug test tomorrow! I slipped up this once! Jessica was there!"

"Who’s Jessica?"

Asked Lance

"Jessica ‘Hot – very hot’ Fatone,"

"Joey’s cousin? Oh, yeah she’s all the Mafia’s daughter act,"

"She’s so hot! I had to get drunk just to be cool around her beauty,"

"Chris, can you let go of me? You’re wrinkling my Garth Brooks pajamas,"

Chris gave him a look and looked at his pjs.

‘You have Garth Brooks Pajamas?"
He asked

"Yeah, they had them at Wal-Mart for fifteen dollars and that was after the little smiley face slashed the prices,"
smiled Lance

"Man, you do need to get out more,"

"Anyway, I don’t know what you will do about the drug test tomorrow,"
said Lance

Chris sat next to him biting his nails.

"Ok, let’s think together,"
said Chris

"I cant,"
yawned

"Why not? Will it help if we put on your sorry ass cassette tape of ‘Sara’?"

Teased Chris

"That’s my personal, private, my personal,"

"Don’t say your personal or your private it out in public, huh? I mean you could be arrested for exposing yourself like that,"
joked Chris

"You are so going to fail the drug test…….ooooooooooooooh,"
he pointed

"Quit it!"

Whined Chris

"What are you going to do?"

"Run away?"

"No,"
said Lance

"Pretend I’m you?"

"No,"

"How about I pretend I’m Willie Nelson?"

"Chris, let’s be serious……Willie would never drink and get caught,"

Laughed Lance

"Yea, you’re right I have to think of someone cooler,"

"Hey!"
Gasped Lance

"How about I can say I’m Busta!"

"What are you going to do about the drug test?"

Asked Lance

"I …….DON’T ………KNOW!"
Snapped Chris

"Shhhhhhhh, you drunk!"

"Sorry, I’m just having a panic attack! First, I see hot babe Fatone dancing and then I drink, my life is ruined,"

"Calm down,"

‘I cant,"

He pouted

"Chris?"

"I’m going to jail man,"

"No, you’re not. I mean so what you had a drink……..It doesn’t mean you’re back on the wagon, right?"

Chris calm down and nodded, "You’re right,"

"See, just tell Johnny what happened tomorrow. I mean in three hours,"

Chris looked at his watch and said, "Well, time to go have my Gwen Stefani fantasy…..Or will it be hot babe Fatone fantasy? Too many hot women on my mind tonight,"

"I don’t care, I just wanna go to bed,"

He yawned

"Thanks Lance for the talk,"

"Sure, whatever,"

"Tell yah what…….I have a lot of gossip to tell yah, but because you’re tired I will tell yah in three hours,"

"Ok, Crazy,"

Yawned Lance

Lance covered himself up as Chris staggered out.

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We lay in each other’s arms and kissed in the dark. We had crawled into bed for a good three-hour sleep and were facing each other. I placed my arms around Sierra and well, it happened like it always did. We couldn’t go to sleep without a lip lock and touching each other. Plus, I was to leave that morning. It was an interesting night of events and I wanted to calm Sierra’s nerves the best way I can. The dark made my migraine go away, at least it settle it.

I placed my hands under her pajama tank top and unbuckled her bra. I then ran my hand from her back to her left breast, which it was the one that was most available to grab. I massaged it as she did the same to my private area. My ejection grew and grew with each stroke of her hand around it. Gosh, it felt good. I pulled down my boxerbriefs and exposed my genitals. She went down on me as I laid there in total ecstasy. Everytime she sucked on my area I got chills of pleasure up my spine. I closed my eyes as I enjoyed the start of foreplay.

She soon kissed my chest and sucked on my neck. No matter what Johnny said, Sierra always made it to my neck, my spot, and gave me a hickey. I know he said it was forbidden but it felt so damn good. I got Goosebumps as I giggled in delight. I soon went behind her legs and massaged her insides with my tongue. She moaned as she ran her fingers through my head of hair telling me not to stop. I fingered her harder and harder as though I was inside her. I decided that after the fifth moan of my finger work, that I wanted in on what my finger was doing. I kissed her lips and we tongued several moments, as we grew excited for what was going to happen. She grabbed my penis again as and massaged it. She wanted to make sure I was excited and hard for her. I then placed my condom on and slipped inside my beautiful princess.

We made love wildly as she rode me as much as I rode her. The minute I was ready to cum I did a plead for one of my fantasies.

"Let’s do it from the back,"
I moaned

"No,"

"Please, just once,’

"I don’t wanna,"

"It’s a sex position, Beautiful. I heard you can really feel it that way,"

"I don’t wanna do it doggy style,"

"Please!!!!!"
I begged

"No,"

I gave up and decided to discuss it with her later, I was too busy trying to hold my cum until the final moment I couldn’t do it anymore. AHHHHH!! Ok, here it comes! I’m cumming! I curled my toes and felt the blankets and sheets strongly as I let loose…….Of course she had to stick her nails in my back.

"Don’t do that!"
I squealed

She giggled and drove them in hard. I got chills up and down my back until it was all over. I gave her a look as I turned on her lamp. She giggled as she was smiling ear to ear.

"You just had to do that didn’t you?"
I asked out of breath

She didn’t answer me as she kissed me passionately. I guess that was a yes, huh? Gosh, I loved to kiss her, those lips were so sweet.

‘That’s when I’ll Stop loving You’ By *Nsync

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
Yeah, that's when I'll stop loving you (echos)

That's when I'll stop loving you

As soon as we relaxed and fell asleep …….it was time to pack up and go to the airport. Sierra cried as she was going to make sure it was going to be really hard for me to leave.

I kneed down to her as she sat at the foot of the bed. I held her hands tightly, squeezing her fingers together.

"Beautiful, I will be back in two weeks,"
I assured her

"Are you sure?"

"I promise you,"

I kissed her lips gently and cupped her face, "In two weeks we get a break and I will be here with you,"

SONG:

I'm sure you've heard these words before
And I know it's hard for you to trust them once more
You're afraid it all might end
And a broken heart is scared of breaking again
But you've gotta believe me
I'll never leave you

"I’m going to miss you so much,"
She sobbed

"I know, because I am going to miss you too,"

I held in my tears, as I didn’t want to show her I was ready to cry it would just make it harder to go. We continued to hold hands all the way out the door to the lobby of the dorm to the cab that would take me to the airport. I held her tightly in my arms, as I didn’t want to leave. She continued to cry hysterically.

"Hey, this isn’t the end, Si. I just have to get stable remember? So we can get married,"
I smiled

SONG:

You'll never cry long as I am there
And I will always be there
When lies become the truth
Oh you know then baby,
That's when I'll stop lovin'
That's when I'll stop loving you

You will never be without love

I pulled away a piece of hair in her face and wiped her tears with my jacket sleeve. She buried her face in my chest. God, I didn’t want to go. A tear fell from my eye as I could barely hold them in anymore.

"Shh, Shh, come on Sierra don’t do this, please,"
I urged

"I love you!"
She sobbed loudly

I snickered as I was so happy she said it, but so loud? I mean students looking as they walked pass us like we were people that just broke out the half way house.

"Sierra, look at me,"
I asked

She attached herself to me and wouldn’t let go as she put her face back in my chest again.

"Sierra, Please?"
I asked

She finally looked up at me with tears every where. More tears fell from my eyes as I tried to be a man about it as I wiped them away quickly. I took my arms away from her side and she grabbed them back. She was like an octopus! I pulled away and open the cab door with her uttering "No, please don’t go,"

"Sierra, don’t make this any harder,"

I urged

"I love you so much,"

"I know, because I love you the same, but I will be back. I’m not going anyway,"

SONG:

As long as sunlight lights the sky
Light of love will be found in these eyes of mine (these eyes of mine)
And I will shine that light for you
You're the only one, I'll ever give this heart to

She nodded as she started to calm down. She was so sweet and beautiful. She was my everything and I didn’t want to leave her neither. I showed her the lion necklace that tied us as one and she placed her hand over the necklace I have her on her neck. We smiled at each other for several moments and then I gave her another passionate kiss goodbye. I didn’t realize what that kiss really meant until I was gone.

She stood on the steps of the dormitory as she watched my cab pull away. I looked back at her through the window and placed my hand on it.

"I love you, Si. I will be back,"

I uttered

She sobbed hysterically as the cab disappeared from sight. She walked back inside………

SONG:

That's when I'll stop loving (well you know then baby)
That's when I'll stop loving you

That's when I'll stop babe
I'll stop babe
Loving you…………

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10 of 10

(sierra)

Tara talked to Laurie ‘Sex Princess’ Lambert, who was co-starring in the new adult film with her called, ‘License to Nymph’. They sat in their bathrobes waiting for their que to do the next seen.

"So, you get to play opposite of James Pabon huh?"

Asked Laurie

Tara looked at Laurie who had three implants within four months to be a 44-DD. She was huge on top and Tara was sure she was having major back pains. Tara completely ignored Laurie’s question as she was dying to ask her question.

"So, does it hurt?"

Asked Tara

Laurie who had plastic surgery on every part of her body to be the prefect sex object and asked, "What hurts?"

‘The bubbles…..um…..I mean your boobs,"

"Bubbles,"

Snickered Laurie

"Well, not to say anything, but my gosh your huge up there! You look like you’re hiding the three stooges in there,"

Joked Tara

"Well, I want to be the ultimate sex object, Tara,"

"Well, I think you accomplished that,"

Tara watched as she adjusted her breasts.

"So, it doesn’t hurt your back?"

Ask Tara

"No,"

"Do is it hard to get out of bed? I mean do you have to hold on to the bedpost to get out? Do you need a crane?"

Laurie snickered at Tara’s serious questions.

‘No, Tara, but I do have to lie on my back when I sleep,"

"I know when I got my implants my doctor told me to sleep on my back or they will burst open like a water balloon,"

"You’re not that big, but you have enough,"

"Shit, Laurie you have enough to pass around. I should of just came to you when I wanted implants,"

Laurie laughed and smiled, "You’re so funny,"

"So, are you a real blonde?"

"No, brunette, small lips, fat, and well, not so attractive, but when the lord made plastic surgeons he saved my life,"

"I’m sure you were beautiful before,"

Laurie pulled out her high school senior picture and handed it to Tara. Tara nodded, ‘You’re weren’t ugly,"

"Tara, I look like a dog,"

She laughed

"No, you didn’t,"

"Well, what do your senior picture look like?"

"I didn’t change much, only my breasts went up a cup size,"

"Naturally beautiful, lucky you,"

"I wouldn’t say that,"

Said Tara

"Well, back to my question, so you’re opposite of James Pabon aka ‘Mr. Boner’,"

Said Laurie

Tara rolled her eyes, "Yeah,"

"He’s big you know that?"

"So, was that other guy from the other film,"

"So, I heard James likes to put on a show,"

"Don’t all the adult entertainers do?"

"Well, that’s besides the point. I look at this way, Tar we have to make it look like it’s the best sex ever,"

"And funny part is, we aren’t even having sex,"

"Well, I heard Robert Siemann is full blown, thank goodness for fake sex huh?"

"Full blown what?"

Laurie put down her eyeliner and said, "What else?"

"I don’t know,"

Said Tara

"He’s HIV Positive,"

Tara, who was drinking her coffee, choked and it went flying out of her nose. Laurie calmly went back to applying her makeup.

"He’s has AIDS?"
Asked Tara

"Yeah, but don’t worry we cant get it,"

"But, yes we can,"

"How?"

"Well, skin is exposed. Oh, no I have a naked seen with him like tomorrow,"

"Well, just tape your area up good and don’t get too close,"
said Laurie

"Laurie, we are having a foreplay seen,"

Laurie stopped applying and looked at Tara through the mirror and pressed her lips together.

"Well, don’t get too close,"

Said Laurie

"Anyone else having a seen with him?"

Laurie got up from her make up chair and put placed her eyeliner in his bathrobe pocket.

"So?"
Asked Tara

"So, what?"

"Laurie, who else is having a seen with Robert?"

"No one,"

"I’m the only one?"

"Yeah, everyone is scared of catching something. Rumors on the set says you’re so brave,"

"Brave?"

"Yeah, to get naked with him, it’s ok though. It’s fake….it’s all fake,"

Laurie walked out as her fake breasts bounced side to side. Tara jumped out of her chair and right to the director’s office. He was talking to one of the porn girls. Well, she was sitting on his desk facing with naked with her legs spread open. We will just say, she was showing him her qualifications for the movie. She quickly covered herself when Tara walked in. It was normal to see the director or some producer getting it on with the stars.

Porn and the people behind the set went hand and hand. The only one that wasn’t sleeping around with the directors and the producers was Tara.

"Tara,"

Said Norman the director

He blushed as the porn star that was exposing herself walked out to leave Tara and him alone.

"She was just showing me a seen for the movie,"

Said Norman

Of course that was a lie and Tara didn’t care. She was more concern for her well being at that moment.

"Can I talk to you for a moment?"

Asked Tara

She sat down as he smiled at her, she didn’t noticed until he did, that her top of her bathrobe opened slightly when she sat down. Norman was such a pervert when it came to the porn actresses on the set. He had screwed more than half of them, including Laurie. The only one he couldn’t and wanted to screw was Tara. She was there for a job and it wasn’t to screw for real. She covered herself and blushed.

"Yes?"

He asked

He was like a hungry drooling wolf wanting to eat her up. She felt intimated by his dream fantasies and hated even talking to him. And hated getting naked in front of him and his nasty crew, but this film paid her 100,000.00 just for her naked body.

"Well, um look about Robert,"
she started

"Isn’t he great,"

Tara got the vibe by his looks that Norman’ door swung both ways and he must have fucked Robert too. Robert was known to be BI-sexual.

"Well, I wanted to tell you that,"

She started

"That reminds me, I would like to make this seen between you and Robert as real as possible,"

"Meaning what?"

"I rewrote the seen and you are having sex with him now,"

"We are? No,"

He nodded as he drooled.

"Well, um,"

She said

"I want it real! I mean have real sex……our customers want it for real. Of course he will wear a condom,"

Tara’s mouth dropped open as AIDS went flowing through her head. She shook her head no rapidly.

"What do you mean no?"

"He’s got the stuff,"

She said

"Yes, his dick is fifteen inches long,"

"He’s wiener is that big!"
She gasped

"Yeah, that’s Oscar Mayer for yah,"

Laughed Norman

"I mean him and Laurie should hook up with their big ole’ stuff and just compare,"

"So, it’s settled, you and him will have real sex!"

"No!"

"What?"

"I cant! There is no way! He’s HIV Positive,"

"Tara, let’s not be so negative about this. No reason to discriminate,"

He shook his finger at her.

"I ain’t sleeping with his nasty ass!"

"Tara, you have to. You’re under contract,"

‘The hell with the terms and condition I don’t wanna get the disease and I am risking my health if I fuck him,"

"Sex has always been a unsafe world,"

"Especially if you sleep with someone you know has the AIDS,"

"Now, let’s think reality here,"

"Reality bites and I refuse to bite him!"
Said Tara

"Well, there is a biting seen but, I gave it to Tasha ‘Big Momma’ Sikes! She’s known for her biting seens in other movies,"
he smiled

"I am not sleeping with him. I was coming in here to tell you I don’t even wanna get jiggy foreplay-naked with him, because he’s nasty that way,"

"Well, if you don’t sleep with him, then I will have to let you go,"

"Meaning I’m done?"

"You can be replaced,"

He said it like it was her lively hood. She wasn’t willing to give up her good health for 100,000.00.

"Fine! I quit!"

She said

She stormed out of the office.

"Nice working with you Tigerlilly Smith,"

He yelled

=================

I walked into my Black History class and took my sit. I was so sad about Josh leaving me. I couldn’t concentrate and anyone that would say shit to me I was going to have to tell them off. Meaning I was ready for fucking Chuku punk ass Mulatto comments. I looked down at my textbooks, as what else was bothering me was, Jessica being still mad. She walked in and didn’t even look at me. She sat down and looked forward. Adrea interrupted my thoughts as she walked over and visited me. She sat in front of me and saw my sad face.

"So, you look as sad as I feel,"
she said

"I miss him already,"
I said

"I know, I was so crying when Justin left,"

"I didn’t want him to go and it’s been two hours and ten minutes since Josh left,"

"They should almost be in Orlando,"

Said Adrea

I sighed and closed my eyes as I ran my fingers through my hair. I didn’t realize I was turning my enemy on as he was drooling looking at me. Wade’s leg bounced quickly as she was watching me and Adrea’s conversation from his desk. He bit his lip as seeing me playing with my hair turned him on. He tried to stop thinking nasty and tapped Jessica on her shoulder. She turned to him and grumbled, "What?"

"Nothing,"

He sighed

"Why you bothering me?"

"Sorry,"

He said all defensive

She turned back around, as it was obvious she was still pissed about Joey and Kelly. She buried her face in her crossed arms on her desk.

I sighed as I looked at Adrea. I didn’t notice Wade vibes as I could care less.

"Then, Jessica’s pissed at me,"
I said

"Well, sierra she’s more mad at Kelly then you. I think she lashed at you because you and Kell are close,"

Said Adrea

"Well, right now I have nothing to say to Kelly. She’s so lying to Jo. He’s a good guy, he doesn’t deserve this,"

"I know, but like they say, love is blind and stupid. Look, I wanted tell you I am going back to Orlando at the end of the semester for good. I put in a transfer for Orlando’s junior college program,"

I sat there in shocked.

"But, you will lose your scholarship,"
I said

"I miss Neva and well Justin will be based out of Orlando,"

"I wish I would have applied at University of Orlando,"

"Well, I miss Neva and I wanna be near her,"

She said

Adrea bowed her head sadly as she thought about her daughter.

"I don’t blame you. I was surprised you even came here. I would have just stayed in Orlando,"

I said

"I know, but this scholarship drove me here and you see for nothing, we can’t even cheerlead,"

Said Adrea

Kai walked in and to his desk, behind me. He ignored Adrea completely but letting his presence known with a huge loud sigh. She stood up and walked back to her desk.

"I’ll talk to you later,"
she said

I nodded and turned to Kai still not knowing Wade was straight staring at me. Adrea saw Wade looking and giggled. Wade gave Adrea a look.

"What?"
He asked

"Staring a little hard?"
She giggled

He got all embarrassed and looked away. Mr. Chuku walked in with his walking stick. He got a new stick from Africa and of course had to show us. We were all scared of him with this fucking stick. We were sure he was planning on beating us with it.

"Ok, Class today,"

He started

He paced in front of the class with his stick and I know the students in the front were scared of that thing. He swung it over their heads trying to substitute hand jesters with the stick. They ducked a couple of times as many of us in the back snickered.

"He’s a little violent today, I see,"

Kai whispered to me.

I smiled and nodded.

"You will sit in groups of four and discuss the roles of salves on plantations,"

Announced Mr. Chuku

We all looked at each other.

"Thee row you are in, huddled with them,"

He ordered

We all moved our desk around to get into huddles. I looked over at Jessica and she quickly looked away. I was dying inside, first Josh leaves and now Jessica was giving me the cold shoulder. Adrea, Wade, Jessica, and another student were in a huddle as Kai; two other students and I were in another.

"Malakai,"
I asked

"Hey, babe,"

He said

"Is Jess still mad at me?"

He shrugged, "I dunno,"

He got up to ask Wade something.

"Ask her for me,"
I urged

He sighed, "I will see what I can do,"

He walked over as I waited patiently. She shrugged and had an evil look on her face as Kai talked to her. Adrea smiled at me as Wade of course gave me the look from hell. I gave him a dirty look back and he let out a ‘Nigga please," I put my nose up and turned away. Kai soon returned. He sat down and sighed, "She said talk to her after class,"

"Is she planning on drop kicking me?"

I asked

"I don’t know, Kid. I didn’t ask her that,"

He smiled as I sighed.

"Let’s begin,"
said Kai to his group.

After class…..Came

I waited patiently for Jessica to come out. I leaned up against the wall waiting. Wade walked out with two other students and (sighed) that fucker and his dirty looks. This time he said nothing. He was just looking for an ass whipping. Adrea walked over with a smirk.

"He’s a fucking asshole,"
I snapped

"He’s so fucking cute,"

"No he’s not,"

"He likes you,"
she smiled

"Fuck him,"

Adrea giggled some more until Kai who presistly bumped into her, said, "Oh, excuse me,"

She gave him a look as he had a huge smile on his face.

"I can’t believe you fucked him,"

I said

"Shhhh,"

She shushed

Jessica finally came out and walked over. She still looked pissed.

"Hi,"
I said lightly

"Hey, look I ain’t mad at you ok?"

Said Jessica

"Why did you snap?"

"Because I was mad at that Kelly Bitch and my fucking Joey and I took it out on you, I shouldn’t have. My fault,"

I smiled as she did it back.

"Now, that you’re friends,"

Said Adrea

"So, you’re ass still fucking leaving us?"
Asked Jessica

"I have too, I miss my baby,"

"I’m going to miss yah,"

"I still have three months, I’m not leaving tomorrow,"
said Adrea

"So, tell Joey he better not come back here, because I put a price on his head. He fucking believed her ass over me,"

Vented Jessica

"Well, I can barely believe Kelly’s gay,"

Said Adrea

"Don’t worry, Joey will snap out of it,"
I said

"Well, I have to get to class,"

Said Jessica

"Me too,"

I said

"Well, me three,"

Said adrea

We soon were off to the next class.

====================

Rome laid in his bed listening to his 2 Pac CD ‘All Eyes on Me’. He got a phone call from Ms. Shakur, Tupac’s mom. He was surprised to hear from her.

"Hi, Rome how are you?"

She asked

"Fine, but how’s things with you?"

"Well, still feel like Tupac will walk into my house and tell me this is a big dream I am having,"

"I know the feeling, when my cell goes off I think of three people that would be calling me, my mom, Wade or Pac. That’s when I realize that Pac wont be calling me,"

There was a long silence until Afeni broke it.

"So, I packed up all his junk from his LA apartment and I am going through it, but he was such a pack rat,"

Said Ms. Shakur

"I know, I was at his place several times and got lost going out his front door,"

"Well, there is so much and I would like to know if you would be willing to come by and help me go through it?"

"Like come to Baltimore?"

"If you could?"

Rome was delighted and honored.

"Sure, no problem. I would love to,"

"He has lot of papers, alot of writings, and I don’t know what to throw out or to keep,"

"Well, I will be there as soon as I can,"

He said

"Oh, I’m so happy you said that, look he also had a Will which I didn’t know about. My lawyer is reading it next week so if you could come that weekend and help me go through his stuff. He put her name in it,"

"The Will? I was in it?"

"Yeah,"

Said Afeni

"Why?"

‘I don’t know, he didn’t have too much left and I see I might have to go after that Suge Knight character. He looked like he left my son penniless,"

"Well, we will discuss this when I get there ok?"

"Ok, I mean if Suge was such a friend, he wouldn’t took all Pac’s money from him,"

"I know, Afeni I know, I told Pac not to trust that guy, but you know how he was,"

"Pac was very hard headed,"

Said Afeni Shakur

"Yeah,"

Sighed Rome

"Well, make your arrangements and I will see you soon,"

"Ok,"

They hung up and Rome sighed. Some giggling and whispers outside on the porch interrupted his thoughts. He was sitting in the livingroom of his mom’s house and got up to see who was outside. He approached the porch and saw three girls outside the door taking pictures? He stood there for a moment, as he couldn’t figure out who these girls were and why they were taking pictures on his porch. They had a sign with them, but Rome couldn’t see what it said. They had a Polaroid with them and placed a picture they took in the mailbox. They soon jumped in a car and sped away. Rome was happy they couldn’t see him looking through his mom’s thick curtains. He opened the door when he thought the coast was clear. He noticed something strange about the porch. His mom’s once potted tree was gone. He looked all around the house and it wasn’t there. He then went in the mailbox and found the picture the girls took and a letter.

Dear J-Shin,

We hope you are doing well and hope for a speedy recovery. We are very saddened by Tupac’s death but, are happy you survived the shooting. My girl Angel who is in the picture just loves you so much. You are so fine and she wants to know if you would have babies with her.

(Rome’s eyes widen as he snickered at that part)

I am Dina and I love you too. I just want to do you. That’s all, I mean I have these dreams about you and I don’t know where they come from. It could be your spanking hot body or your wonderful singing voice. Everytime I heard you sing I just wanna get naked. I’m not a crazy girl or anything; I just want to do you like I said. I love you in last video when you wore your tight ass tank top and your black jeans. You were also in hot in 2 Pac’s video ‘I ain’t mad at ch-a’ , oh my god baby you are so fine. I know you are with Aaliyah but I can make you so happier. Here’s a photo of both of us.

(Rome went to his mailbox again and found the second picture. he laughed when he saw Dina had pulled up her shirt to reveal her bra to him)

See I even showed you my chest, I am ready to get jiggy with you.

Love

Dina and Angel

P.S.

When you getting back to singing?

Rome closed the letter up and wondered if they were the ones that stole his mom’s tree. he shrugged until his mom came down the street in her Jaguar. She was so happy Rome kept his promise and bought it for her. She pulled into the driveway and Sliver jumped out. She had picked him up from school. His mom got out of the car fussing immediately.

"Rome, I have to transfer Sterling out of school to a private one,"
she said

"No, you don’t momma,"

Said Sliver

"Shut up, Sliver I’m talking,"

She said

"What happened,"

Asked Rome

"Well, the girls are coming up to him asking if they can call the house,"

She said

"Why?"

‘So, they can talk to his famous brother J-Shin of course,"

She snapped

Rome laughed as Sliver nudged him; "I’m so cool because of you,"

"Sterling, shut your mouth and go inside start your homework,"
she ordered

Sterling aka ‘Sliver’ stormed inside the house. She walked on the porch still fussing.

"So, now I have to transfer that boy into a private school. The boys at school are picking on him. I think Sliver telling everyone that you are his brother and they should kiss his black ass,"

Rome fell out laughing, "Woo! That’s my brother for yah!"

"Rome that ain’t funny, he’s trying to start fights at school because of you,"

"Ok, momma I will talk to him,"

"It don’t matter cuz he’s getting out of that school,"

She stood with her hands on her hip and gasped.

"What?"

Asked Rome

"Where is it!"

"Where’s what?"

She walked over to where her potted tree was. All that remained was the outline of the dirt mark where the pot use to be. Rome shrugged.

"I don’t know, but I think it might…..BIG might, be one of my fans,"

He said

She turned to him, "How do you know?"

He handed her the letter, "Now, don’t get all upset about what Dina wrote about me,"

Her eyes widen and then saw the pictures, "They taken pictures in front of our house? Did these tramps take my tree?"

"I don’t know,"

"We gotta call the cops,"

"Momma, they are kids,"

"Fucking teenagers,"

"Let’s calm down about this,"

"I’m calling Officer Timberlake and he can pick these girls up for stealing my tree. It took me six years to grow that thing,"

"This is my fault,"

"Well, Officer Timberlake will arrest them,"

"We have no prove they did it,"

"They look ghetto,"

She said

"They from the hood,"

"Damn hoochies!"
She snapped

She walked in the house as Rome followed her in laughing.

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(Josh)

The plane was ready to arrive at the Orlando airport and I was writing Rachel, my pen pal, ex foreign exchange/ sister a letter. We were doing very well keeping up with the letter exchange.

Dear Rach,

It’s Mr. Big Head writing you back, as you call me. I don’t have a big head no matter what you say about our recent photo shoot in the Bop Magazine. See if you look closely you will notice it’s my hair flip thing in the front that is making my head look big. And your jokey-jokes about my nose now getting small or is my head getting head skit wasn’t funny. J/k

Anyway, our record sells are doing very well but I thought I over head Johnny and Louis talking about a European invasion again. I must have been hearing things because I swear he said something about going there for a month, touring France, Germany, The UK, and I think they said Austria. I hope it’s not true because then I can’t see Sierra like forever. It was the first time ever that I broke down and cried. I started to cry when I saw her beautiful face in tears. When the cab turned the corner out of plain sight, I breakdown quietly. I miss her so much and my heart broke into a million of pieces. If it were up to me, I would have just stayed. This career though means a lot, I feel like I am trapped between love and my dreams. I hope it’s all a rumor and my hearing is wrong about us leaving for Europe. I made a promise to my beautiful that I would be back in two weeks and well, I hate to let her down.

Well, write soon.

Josh

I looked over at Chris walking passed with his black T-shirt with white writing that said on it ‘NORMAL PEOPLE SCARE ME’. I snickered at his T-shirt, as he had another with funny saying ‘PEOPLE LIKE YOU ARE THE REASON WHY PEOPLE LIKE ME NEED MEDICATION’, he wore that one yesterday.

"I hate flights, my ears are all plugged up,"

Said Chris

I smiled as I continued to stare out of the plane window. I thought about my beautiful’s face and what she must be doing right now. I wonder what she was thinking about me and if she was missing me as I much as I missed her. Just then, my thoughts were interrupted, I looked over and Vicky ‘Sable" as she goes by sat next to me. Remember she was one of our make up artists. She noticed my sad face as she tried to cheer me up with her smiling one.

"Hey,"

I said

"Can I sit with you?"

I looked around and knew we had like ten seats on this plane and she could have her pick. She chose to sit next to me, she was still crushing on me. I smiled and picked up my trusty notebook of poems and lyrics and let her sit.

"So, I but you cant wait to see your folks huh?"
She asked

"Actually I rather be back in New York,"

She stopped smiling and said, "Sierra?"

I looked over at her when she said her name.

"Yeah, she’s my girlfriend. It was really hard leaving her,"

I said

"Well, I would like to say she is very lucky to have someone like you,"

Said Sable

"Thanks Vicky I mean Sable, (chuckle) what should I call you,"

I asked

Chris snickered as she could hear our conversation, "Call her Too Hot To Trot,"

"Chris, are you flirting with me?"

She asked

He looked over the seat and smiled, "Is it working?"

"No,"

He sighed, "Damn it, I must try harder,"

I smiled, "Well, Chris with your odd saying t-shirts I’m sure you will be a real babe magnet,"

"Tomorrow I’m wearing my shirt that says ‘You Need someone listening to you for it to be an actually conversation’,"

Said Chris

We laughed as Chris turned back around. Sable winked at me as I blushed.

"You’re so adorable JC,"

She said

I didn’t answer her as I was too embarrassed by her compliments. She pinched my cheek and I giggled.

"What a cutie,"
she said

"Thanks!"
Yelled Chris

"I was talking to Josh,"

Said Sable

"Oh, I’m sorry, but I was actually talking to my split personality named Chuck….ok, now Chuck what were you saying before we were rudely interrupted,"
joked Chris

We laughed.